Don't Lose Your Focus

Chapter 3

Sam's POV

After Jewel dropped me off at my house, she right away said goodbye, saying she has to get ready for her date this evening. So I of course genuinely shared to her my support.

Now I'm here all alone at my house doing who knows what. Just here lying on my bed, gazing blankly on the ceiling.   What should I do now? Should I clean? Try my outfits on? I think that won't be necessary. Should I go watch TV?

Oh, I know! Since I'm already in my room I should probably open and go through my cameras, yeah that's it. So I sat up and reached the three cameras on my table and placed them on my bed in front of me. Ooh. I think one of them is a polaroid camera. That's interesting. I picked it up and attempted to turn it on. But when I clicked to capture, there wasn't any film coming out so I'm guessing it's empty.  

Okay, to the next one, then. I picked up this large heavy camera which I think is Canon, maybe. I turned it on and went immediately to the photos.    Wow! I'm so shocked and amazed right now. 'Cause as I go through every other picture I see this quite pretty photos of people doing some activities, events, which I'm guessing is from my school.

And boy, this made me so glad. I'm almost tearing up right now. Haha. But, no.   I kept gazing through the pictures happily. And all of a sudden I kept seeing a guy's face in my camera as I go through every other one. So I began to wonder who the hell was that? As I pressed next continuously, his face is still what I am seeing. Then, finally I saw myself with the guy... both facing the camera... smiling.   And it blew my mind. And somehow scared me.

The next thing I knew, I quickly picked up the other camera which I think is a filming camera. And I immediately turned it on to find out who was the guy in the photo with me.   Then eventually I found a thumbnail with me and the guy on it so I swiftly pressed play.  

"Danny, say hi to the camera." I heard myself talking to the guy, me filming him eating something in front of me. And I think we're in a restaurant. "Hi, Sammy." The guy looked up, talking kindly and grinned. And I heard myself giggled.    And after that I quickly ended the video anxiously and scared.    Oh, my freakin' god! Who the hell was that guy!? I'm so freaking out right now.   Why did no one said anything about me having another friend?! Wait... is he even really my friend? If not, then who the hell was he? Is he maybe my brother?...    Oh, god, no! Don't even think like that, Sam! That's awful.    But, the who is he?! This is freaking me out.

What should I do now? Should I call Jewel and ask her about this? She's probably busy getting ready.   How about aunt Bella? I think she's probably busy, too. Then what? My brain is killing me! It wants answers! I can't help but overthink now. And it's driving me crazy.         Breathe, Sam. Breathe. Relax...

Yeah, I better not get worked out too soon over this 'cause I honestly still don't know the full story yet. So I better compose myself or else I'll look really mental. Yeah, that's right. Breathe, calm down. Hoo.

After that, I lied back on the bed trying to calm down. What the hell just happened? Hahaha. I began to giggle, recalling that I just started off a conflict with myself, like, who the hell does that?   I just freakin' made myself a stupid problem that I don't think is even real. Like, what the flip! I'm so stupidly dramatic, huh? Well, don't blame me. I have amnesia... I think that's not an excuse, Sam. Well, I have a better one, it's the gay in me! How 'bout that? No.... No!

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I suddenly felt a stinging brightness around me and my room, so out of curiosity I woke up. And I came to mind that it's morning already. Oh, what? Did I fell asleep yesterday noon until now? Oh, my god! Why did I do that?