White walls. Where the hell am I?
As I look at my surroundings, more white stuff. I'm lying on a bed.
My eyes hurt, why would it? Again, what the hell happened? My next thought is Elena. Oh no. Everything that happened passes through my head like a wild dream. First, the looks that I and Elena gave each other, next, the attack, no, Elena, blood, poor Ric. What caused that? Fuck, I know nothing! Then again what happened to me? Why am I lying here on a bed, at what I figured, mystic fall's hospital? With these horrible white walls that look like from a baby's room. Baby. God. That was it, a baby.
I remember. The doctor told me that Elena was- is- pregnant. My hands start shaking, my breath gets heavier. Elena is pregnant. Elena is in coma. The words doctor McDreamy said, all keep playing on a loop at my head.
A baby? How? Did she cheat on me? No, Elena would never! Did she have sex when I was away with that son of a bitch? No, hell no, she wouldn't. Is the baby mine? Am I going to be a father?
I shake my head, no, I can't take care of a kid. But, Elena with me, we can finally have our family. That's when it hit me. Elena is in coma. No. I start shaking my head angrily and hot tears run down my cheeks. I don't cry often, rarely do, but I might be losing the love of my life! How the hell am I supposed to react? I get up and throw the corner table, to nowhere especially. I'm angry.
Shaking any bad thoughts off my head, I open the damn door and go running through the halls in need to see Elena. Not even knowing where I'm heading to, I just need to find her. As I run through the crowded hallways, I bump into some people in the way, but I don't care. I can see people calling nurses and doctors but my focus is Elena. I can't hear anything, just the sound of my not so steady breath.
Passing through the doors of mystic fall's Hospital, I finally find it. Her room. I can sense doctors coming after me, but I have to see Elena. The doctors seem to get my message and don't come after me, surprisingly. I think all they see is a broken man, what is the true status for me now, without Elena.
As I open her door, there she is. Lying peacefully, beautiful as always. She can't leave me. The whole room is silent, but out of nowhere, a strange sound comes from her. I take five steps closer to her bed, but that's just enough to touch her. As I'm going to caress her hair, the sound continues, thump, thump, thump, thump, and there it is. As I follow the sound, it leads me straight to her stomach. The baby.
My eyes start to water. I don't care if it's not my baby because it feels like it's. I sit down next to her on the bed, my hands caressing her stomach lightly. I don't know what's happening to me, instinct I guess. After a long time of hesitation, I finally say, "Elena, darling. You can't leave me. Us. That's a weird thing to say." I chuckle softly, my vision blurring from tears.
"Damn it, Elena. I can't do this. Not without you. Please, just wake up. I need you, we need you. Yeah, I know about the baby, I really hope it's mine, but if it's the doctor's, it might be even better. I can't take care of a kid Elena. I don't even know what happened at the wedding. The soon I saw you lying there with a lot of blood all over you, I froze, the only thing I could do was get you to the hospital. I waited for 5 hours, just to have news about how you were. Doc said it's something supernatural, he said it wasn't normal, so it's supernatural. I didn't even talk to anyone after the accident. When he said you were pregnant, 7 months pregnant, I froze. The next thing I remember was waking up, and running to see how you were. I know I've to talk to someone about what happened, but I don't really know what happened! I need you, Elena. And the baby right here " I kissed her cheek and just sat there, hearing the baby's heartbeat. I've never heard one before. "needs you."
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"That's sad, daddy" my little girl trailed off, with a pout. "I wanted a good happy story. This is so sad." She said with tears threatening to roll down her angelic face.
Her head was on my shoulder and her little arms were laying on my chest. She was my life. Her soft curls intertwined with my fingers never felt so right. She's so precious. She is so much like her mother in so many ways but I can still see a little of me on her, the attitude, damn, this girl will be a badass. But she's more like Elena, the huge heart and such a passion for caring, she let's little people enter her heart, but the ones that are lucky, she gives all the love and care in the world.
Elena. This is a very delicate topic, I miss her like crazy. When I heard about her being in a coma, I wanted to turn off my humanity, but then there's my cupcake, she's always putting me on the right place. Every time I feel like giving up, she's there. Telling me how school was or showing some drawing she did.
It's surreal the thought that it passed 3 years since the accident. Ric is doing well, I mean, he misses and mourns Jo's death, still, but he has his girls, just like I've mine. She was my only hope, still is, my only hope.
In moments in my life, I've never thought I would be a good father. Still question if I'm am, indeed. But, I try my best for her, she's everything I've. She's what kept me going after Elena's magic coma.
I never missed one single thing that happened in her life so far, and I hope I never will. I was there when she said daddy for the first time. I was there when she went to school for the first time. I was there when she asked me if she was ever going to meet her mom. I was there to change her diapers, to give her bath, to cook for her, to sing lullabies for her to sleep. And I don't regret a single moment.
I'm pulled away from my thoughts as I watch her patiently waiting for me to say something regarding what she said.
Those big doe blue-eyed watching me carefully. She's so beautiful. Her brown hair just like her mother's but with lots of curls to it. Her olive skin which makes her look so perfect. When she closes her eyes she's the exact replica of Elena. But when she opens it, we are drowned to her sapphire eyes, bluer than mine. These innocent eyes, the ones who never saw anything bad, the ones which if I could, I would make them look like this forever.
I'll teach you everything I know.
I promise I'll do better.
I will always hold you close,
But I will learn to let you go.
"Not always the good stories have happy endings, sometimes bumps in the road make the story far more enjoyable than when everything is calm. Yet, who says that's the ending, huh?" I tickle her belly and she giggles maniacally forgetting about the supposed sad story. You can't describe something until it ends completely, and honestly, our journey just began.
It's not sad, just unfinished.
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