Finding her

4

ALESSIA'S P.O.V.

For the next week, I didn't see much of Nick. Just in classes and I couldn't bring myself to sit at lunch with him and the twins during lunch anymore knowing I was the one who messed up. I fucked up everything.

Even if I did see Nick, we exchanged nothing more than simple pleasantries like we were strangers. And it killed me. It killed me that the closeness we once had was gone. It killed me that Nick wasn't by my side anymore but most of all, it killed me to see him with Makayla all the time.

It was like seeing them together made this hole in my chest even deeper time and time again. It really is amazing how you feel it in your stomach when something's wrong with your heart.

I didn't know what to do so I decided to try working on my essay for my literature class. That was to no avail because I couldn't write a single thing down and every time I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate, his face popped up in my mind and the ache in my chest grew worse. It made me feel empty, incomplete and I didn't like it.

Walking down the hallways of Winston high. Posters for prom were up all around the hallways.

Usually, I really didn't care about such things but while things were still good between Nick and I, Zarha convinced me, Alisha and Anne to go to prom and I had to cancel on my sister and the rest of my girls.

I rested my head against my locker and closed my eyes. A sigh escaping my lips and tears threatened to spill. I took a deep breath till someone touched my shoulder and I looked up to find Brandon and Blake with a sympathy in their eyes.

I didn't say a word. I couldn't say a word because all the words were stuck in my throat and when I tried to speak, the only thing that came out was a sob. After that sob, came another and another till the tears finally came.

The tears I had been holding back do long finally started spilling.

Brandon whispered. "She's crying. What do we do?"

Blake looked at him as if to say "You're an idiot." and held me close to him.

"It's okay, Cupcake." he cooed.

When I finally found my words, I spoke "I swear, I didn't mean anything I said. I just wanted to stop those girls and I didn't know he'd... I didn't want him to..." I couldn't even finish my sentences and the tears kept flowing.

"Shhh... Its okay, Cupcake. Its all going to be alright." Blake whispered and placed a small kiss to my hair.

"But don't you think its better if you tell him this instead? I know that hes not doing any better than you are right now. So go talk to him." Brandon reasoned. 

"He doesnt want to see me. I'm sure he hates me by now. I was getting harder and harder to speak and the words kept getting stuck in my throat.

"Quite the opposite, my dear cupcake." Blake chuckled a bit. 

"We can get him alone for you if that's what you need, Alessia." Brandon said and pulled my nose a bit and I smiled like it always made me.

"Thank you so much. Both of you." I said and placed kisses on both their cheeks.

"Anything for you."

NICK'S P.O.V.

I looked at her more times than I could count. More times than I bothered to count. She looked just as beautiful as she always does. At this point, all I wanted was to hold her hand like I used to and see her smile at me and bicker with me and refuse to let me carry her bag but then eventually let me. I miss how we used to be. I just miss her.