Have you ever felt like you ruin everything?
Yeah that's how I feel.. I'm in this band. 5 seconds of summer... have you heard of it? Yeah. I'm Michael Clifford. You may know me as the "badass" or "kitten" of the group. To me, I am the reject.. i can't seem to get anything right. For instance, when the boys and I were working on a new song. They gave my solo to Ashton.. he's the fucking drummer! I can't fucking believe that. . . The guys really know how to make me feel okay. ha! just kidding..
I met this girl. she's beautiful. the problem is, is she's Ashton's girlfriend. she's 17, beautiful, and his. her name is Ellie. look at her, her long ombré-ed blonde and dark green curly hair.. every guys dream, well, in my case nightmare. she's the angle from my nightmare. She's curvy, not to skinny not to fat, the perfect combination in a girl. she's quite short actually. about 5'2". she's my worst nightmare.. she's the reason I cry myself to sleep.. you don't even know how well it felt to say that, I tweet, "I hope it fucking haunts you that you're the reason for scars on someone's body" both Ashton and Ellie retweeted it. Ashton tagged his dad in the tweet.. well then..
Ashton ruined me.. I'm a wreck.
just then, Ellie walked in, she had her khakis on, with her dark blue sweater of mine that I let her use one the first day I met her. "hey Mikey!!" she said with this beautiful smile, and she gave me this hug. the hug of 'I hate you but I'm still going to hug you' hug. she sits next to me on my black couch. I pull out iPhone and tweet, 'welcome to my nightmare'
she's kind of looking at me really strange.. "what's wrong?" I said.
"I love you.." after she said that she quick covered her mouth with her hands. She-she-she what? She loves me? No. she can't. She's Ashton's. Not mine. A-S-H-T-O-N'S. I looked at her a little wierded out, I slid closer to her looked her in the eye, this is Ashton's girl. I kept repeating that, Ashton's girl.
I grabbed her by the waist and I kissed her roughly, "You might be Ashton's girl, but tonight, you are mine."
