Made Up

Chapter 12

Charlie POV
"Wake up wake up wake up. It's my wedding day." Paige screamed as she danced around the room.
"Someone knock her upside the head. It's not even five am at." Bonnie grabs my pillow out from under my head and throws it at Paige while she's mid skip, then covers her head up with her own.
"Owe what'd you do that for? I'm not the one that woke you up." I grab Paige's empty pillow and cover my own head.
"Come on y'all! It's my wedding day. Can't you even act a little happy for me?"
"Paige you are such a drama queen. It's not your wedding day it is the pre dawn hours before your wedding day and I'm going back to sleep!" Emma halfway yells across the room.
Paige goes stomping to the bathroom. Even though she slammed the door I can still hear her throwing stuff around. She's probably not even looking for anything she just wants to make a mess someone else will have to clean up later. I lay back down and try to get some sleep, but knowing Louis and Harry are so close only makes missing them that much worse.
Finally I give up. If it's technically Paige's wedding day then we didn't spend the night in the same bed. I get up and make my way to the door trying not to fall on my face. I walk across the hall into the boys room. All four boys are sound asleep. Niall and Liam are actually spooning; with Niall being the little spoon. I wish I had my phone for a picture. Thankfully Louis and Harry are laying in the bed facing each other so I'm able to slip in the middle. As soon as I touch the bed they are both awake. I crawl in and slip under the covers. I move to where I am the little spoon to Louis's big spoon and I pull Harry close enough to where I can lay my head on his shoulder. I wouldn't be able to sleep this close to them for a whole night but I have missed them and I need this right now.
"Hey so did the rules change all of a sudden?" Louis ask while placing his hand on my hip. I take it and pull it up to around my waist and hold on tight.
"No they haven't but it's only five am and Paige is dancing around our room. I just need a minute." Louis nuzzles his nose into my hair at the base of my neck. He gives me a light kiss but I know it's only meant to be comforting. I fall fast asleep.
Three hours later and were all up eating breakfast. Niall is in heaven. Granny has pulled out all the stops for the boys. She's made fresh biscuits, sausage gravy, scrambled eggs, hash browns, toast and jelly, and a fruit salad. She brings a bottle of orange juice to the table and Niall ask her around a mouth full of food "Granny will you adopt me?"
Granny hooks her finger and thumb under his chin and lefts his head. "Where do I sign the papers?"
Everyone laughs as Niall puts both arms around her waist and says in a small voice "I love, I love you so much!"
"Will you adopt me as well Granny?" Harry has the most innocent look on his face as he looks up at her.
"Back off Styles she's mine!" Niall holds up his fork while still keeping one arm around Granny's waist.
"Boys boys now behave yourself or no one gets adopted." Granny pats them both on the head and they act like two little dogs that just got called good boys. I can't believe these are the same boys as the ones for whom it has been said their voices are literally orgasm inducing.
I look at Louis. "Do you want to be adopted as well?"
"No I'd rather marry into the family!" He smiles.
I know I have a shocked look on my face for a minute but I'm positive it's just a joke. I look over at Bonnie and Paige and they both are looking at me with their mouths wide open. I wave my hand in a don't even think about motion.
I turn to Liam. "What about you Liam? Are you marrying someone or getting adopted?"
Liam doesn't even stop eating to answer he just smiles around his food and continues to eat.
"Ok everyone got to sleep, and now everyone has eaten. Can't we please get excited about my wedding day?"
"Oh my goodness you're getting married today I'm so happy I think I'm going to cry!" Harry squeals at the top of his lungs.
I can't hold back the laughter when I see Paige's face. She is so not amused by his sarcasm but it just makes it all the funnier. I get up and walk over to Paige. "I am really excited and grateful to be able to be apart of this special day with you." I give her a big sloppy kiss on the cheek which I know will make her cringe.
"Ew gross get off me!" Paige tries to slap me away but I quickly move.
I grab some of the empty plates and head towards the kitchen sink. Louis follows me. He stands against my back and puts his hands on my hips. "Can I get a kiss this morning?"
I turn around and kiss him on the cheek just like I did Paige. He smiles and his cocky grin that I love. "Ha ha I guess I deserve that."
I grin at him and turn back around to wash dishes. He grabs a towel and starts drying while I wash.
This is the perfect time to bring up something that I'm not sure about how to approach. "So my parents will be here in a little while. They don't know anything about you or Harry, and definitely nothing about me you and Harry."
Louis gets a serous look on his face. He's quite for a minute and I start to get afraid that I've insulted him. As soon as I get up the nerve to say something else he ask "What do you want them to know?" The look in his eyes are so intense I almost forget how to speak.
After swallowing a few times to try to get my mouth to work properly I say "I'm not sure. I've never brought a guy home before. I never dated much in high school. I don't know how my parents would act if I brought home one guy let alone two." I take another minute to catch my breath and settle my nerves. Talking about all of this and trying to navigate all the twist without hurting anyone is nerve wracking. "Also the girls all know about you and Harry; thanks to that picture you sent." I give him a bit of side eye with that statement. "But I know they will never speak of it to anyone. No one in my family will expose you today if you and Harry want to be open. It's up to you I just wanted to let you know."
I finish up the last few dishes and dry my hands. I turn to Louis and lean my forehead on the base of his neck. I don't want to hide Louis and Harry. I want to be able to introduce them to my parents and let them know how much these two incredible people mean to me. But my parents are so old fashioned I'm not sure they would understand. I don't think most people who consider themselves to be modern or forward thinking would understand. Hell I'm in the relationship and I don't understand most of it myself.
I know that I care about Louis and Harry. I know that I am sexually attracted to both of them. I know that seeing them together and knowing the love they share makes me happy. We agreed that we didn't need a label and I still stand by that decision but I don't see my self looking at my parents saying 'Hey y'all these are my two gay friends that I'm eventually going to have a threesome with.' I'm sure even the thought of that being an option would send my mother into convulsions. I don't even want to know what my dad would do.
I look up into Louis' eyes. "How would you introduce me to your family if the roles were reversed?"
"Well my mom is the best in the world! She knew I liked boys even before I did and she was over the moon when I picked Harry. But even she would have a hard time wrapping her head around us. I think that's why I haven't introduced you to her yet."
I take his words in and think over them for a minute. "So you want me to tell my parents? We agreed no labels so I don't even know what to call you really other than a friend. Even though it's so much more."
"I don't know what to say. I don't know how to explain it to anyone myself. I'm ok with being called a friend. I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing to be called. I'm sure Harry won't mind either. It's your family I will respect any decision you make in what you want to tell them."
"I don't think I want to tell them anything for now." I feel horrible as soon as the words are out of my mouth. Of course I want to tell them. I want to shout it from the roof tops because Louis and Harry are wonderful men and they care about me. Out of all the women in the world they can have they've chosen me to care about. But I also know that in a short period of time we will most likely part ways and I'm not sure I want to put my family through the drama that will most definitely occur for something that's not going to last. I am a big coward and I know it.
"If you are going to be in my wedding you have got to get ready. We are supposed to be at the salon in twenty—five minutes." Paige says as she pops through the kitchen going to the laundry room.
"I am ready!" I don't see the point in getting dressed up to go three minutes down the road and get dressed up.
Paige looks at me and rolls her eyes. "Fine I guess. Just go get in the car already."
I kiss Louis one more time. I mean for it to be quick but he holds me in place for a moment. When he pulls away he says "Maybe that will hold me over through today."
He lets me go and I head to the car. My head is spinning and my knees are so weak I feel like I've been swimming. I never thought a kiss would actually make me weak in the knees. 
     I am so confused after the conversation with Louis that I can't find it in myself to be excited about the wedding. I don't want to be a downer on Paige's big day but I have to admit I'm kind of jealous. I have two of the best guys I've even met and I don't feel like I can tell anyone because they will think we are gross or weird. I wonder if Louis and Harry have felt like this the whole time they've been together.
    I must not be hiding my mood as well as I thought because Bonnie puts her arm around my shoulder. "What's the matter?"
    I start to tell her I'm fine but something in my brain switches and I say "I don't know how to tell my parents I have two gay boyfriends."
    Everyone looks at me with a rainbow of emotions on their faces. Emma's face says "if you tell them that I will definitely be the favorite child" and "please don't kill mama and daddy today". Bonnie's face says "I'm really glad I don't have your problems". Paige however doesn't leave her thoughts on her face. She looks in the rear view mirror and says "Well honey if you're dating them they are Bisexual not gay!"
     I don't know whether I want to laugh or cry at this moment. I bury my head in Bonnie's shoulder and sort of let my chest convulse for a moment. When no tears come I decide I must be laughing at the situation.
    "Ok well how do I tell them I have two bisexual boyfriends?"
    Emma, who I have always went to for advice, because she is my older smarter sister looks at me dead in the eye and says "Don't tell them. Mom will die."
     I look out the window in frustration. I honestly thought they would give me some good advice. All of a sudden I am really pissed off. Why should I have to hide anything just because people won't understand. They are my parents shouldn't they love me no matter what
and only want me to be happy.
     We get to the salon and I have my temper halfway under control. We walk in and Mama and both my aunts are already there. I hug all three of them and go in search of the farthest chair away from everyone.
After about thirty minutes with everyone laughing and talking about old times I start to feel a little better. I love when mama and my aunts talk about themselves growing up. I love hearing the stories of how things were so different back them. Some of it was good and some of it was bad but it is a different time that I will only be able to experience through story telling. I think that's one reason I wanted to become a writer in the first place. So much of the world in past present and future is only experienced through books and stories. I want to be someone who gets to tell a great story and share it with the world. I know the book I'm helping the boys with will get my name out in the business and probably make me a lot of money, but it's not the story I want to tell. I wish I could write their real story. I wish I could write the story of Louis and Harry. I don't want to out them by any means, but I think their story is beautiful in an almost tragic way. I think they would give a lot of people hope and courage if they were allowed to come out.
I can't help but think about what part I play in their story. Do I make it better? Do I make it more complicated? In the long run will I be more than a filler chapter in the story of their lives. I am shocked my how much these questions hurt to ask. I look in the mirror and I see tears welling up in my eyes. This is the moment that I have to be honest with myself. It may be stupid and it may be too fast but I am in love with Louis and Harry. I'm not sure when it happened but it has. I don't want to be just a small part of their story together I want the three of us to make our own story together. The only problem is I don't know if that's what they want. We went into this knowing that I will be leaving in a few weeks and that may be all they ever wanted.
I bow my head and try to wipe away the tears before spill out all over my face. The last thing I need is for everyone to see me cry.
"Honey what's wrong? Why are you crying?" I swear my mom has a sixth sense about one of her kids being upset. It never fails, even when I'm all the way in California if I start to get upset my mom always calls.
Seeing the concern in her face only makes everything that much worse. I stand up and throw my arms around her. I may be crying because I can't explain a major life decision I've just made to her but she is the only one I want to comfort me right now. She holds me right and I feel her lower her head into my hair. I've always been thankful my mom is slightly taller than me. When she hugs me I feel completely encased by her and I feel safe and protected.
After a few moments I calm down and sit back down to finish getting ready. Mama's eyes don't leave my face and I know that she won't leave until I give her an answer. I buy myself sometime with "Can we talk about it later. I don't want to interrupt Paige's big day." If there is anything in this world my mom appreciates its good manners. So she is willing to let it all go because she doesn't want to risk taking the spotlight off Paige on her own wedding day.
We spend almost six hours getting ready. It wouldn't have taken nearly as long if we didn't have to stop every few minutes for pictures.
When we're finally done we go back to Granny's to finish setting up. The wedding is going to be in her back yard and when we left nothing had even been set up. I'm sure it's going to be loads of fun doing manual labor in ten pounds of make up and hair spray.
We get out of the car and I hear my dad laughing in the back yard. I look at my sister with a question on my face as I go through the gate. I am amazed by what I see. Everything is done. The alter has been set up and the chairs are all in rows. The tent for the reception is in place and all the table and chairs have been set up there as well. I look around and I see Harry directing Liam in tying a bow on the last chair.
"Paige walks around from behind and squeaks with happiness. "It's beautiful. It's better than I imagined thank you so much. She hugs my dad and says "Thank you Uncle Dan it's perfect."
My Dad hugs Paige back and says "I had a lot of help from these young men here." He looks at me "I'm told they are some of your friends."
I stutter a little bit as I try to find my words. I have never been able to lie to my daddy. I've never really needed a reason and telling him they're my friends is not actually a lie but still I don't really know what to say. "Yeah. Yes sir! We're friends. Well work friends. They hired me you know to write their book. So I'm....".
Louis walks up beside my dad. "I told your father how you told us about your family and home town and Granny's cooking and we just had to see it for ourselves."
I have honestly never been so thankful for anyone else in my life. I want to hug Louis so much right now but I hold back.
My mom walks up at this point. "Dan what was so funny a minute ago? We heard you laughing all the way in the front yard!"
Dad breaks out into the biggest smile. "Honey these are the young men Charlie is working for. They are a band, um well I forgot the name sorry, but they have been helping out around here all morning, and this one" he says while pointing to Harry, " has the best jokes. Really you need to hear some of them." He then puts his hand on Louis' shoulder. "This one helped set up the tent. I don't think I would have figured it out if it wasn't for him."
My dad likes Louis and Harry. What the hell universe? For fucks sake are you trying to make me have a mental break down. How am I supposed to react to this?
"Well do you all have names or am I supposed to call you this one and that one?" My mom gives my dad a stern look saying that he has definitely made a mistake in not introducing everyone properly.
"Louis Tomlinson ma'am it's nice you meet you." Louis holds out his hand and shakes my mom's very softly, before point out the rest of the guys. "That's Harry, Niall, and Liam."
Everyone waves except for Liam who still hasn't figured out the bow, but he does look up and smile. I go over and help him because at this point I feel like I could explode. There is so much going on in my brain I don't know what to do or where to turn.
"Well it's lovely to meet all of you. Thank you for helping out. Are you staying for the wedding?" I look at my mom. I can usually tell how she feels by the tone of voice she uses. The happier she is the higher her voice goes. When she's upset or mad it gets very low.
If I had to guess right now I would say she's not exactly mad, but she doesn't seem too happy to see the boys either. I don't know what that's about but I don't have the time or mental capacity to focus on it right now. It's time for me to go get my dress on.
An hour later I am sitting in my room completely dressed but too scared to walk down stairs. My mom knows that something is wrong with me. If she ask me about it again I don't know if I'll be able to keep it together. All I want to do is find Louis and Harry and hide between them and disappear for a little while. I hear a knock at the door and I look up.
Louis and Harry both walk into the room. It's like they read my mind. Both of them have changed into dress pants and button down shirts. Louis' is in classic black pants and white shirt. I've always seen his shirts buttoned all the way up but I guess even he is feeling the affects of Mississippi heat because is collar is open and I can see some of his collar tattoo. He is so sexy I want to bury my face in his neck. I look at Harry and have to laugh. Is he seriously wearing Gucci to my cousin's back yard wedding? He has on a black dress shirt open almost all the way down and some floral black and white dress pants. He looks amazing of course but I can only imagine what everyone will think.
Louis squats down in front of me and takes my hands while Harry sits beside me. Neither of them say anything and I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
Finally Harry speaks. "Louis and I talked about it while you were gone. We're sorry that we came and messed everything up for you. We can leave if you want us to."
Leave? No they can't leave! "No I don't want you to leave. Seriously please don't leave me!"
Louis stands up and brings me into a hug. Harry wraps his arms around both of us. This is exactly what I asked for and it's exactly what I need. I am so at peace right now I know that I don't care what people think. They don't have to understand because the only thing that matters is that we are happy together. I want to tell them that I love them but I still hold back. I don't think it's the right time.
I make it down stairs just in time to get in line to walk down the isle. I stand in place at the alter but I don't pay much attention to Paige and Josh. I keep looking at my boys. I see Niall and Liam sitting with them and have to take in the site of them. Niall is in a baby blue dress shirt and gray pants. Liam is in a white shirt with gray vest and pants. They look amazing.
The ceremony is over quickly and it's time for the reception. I am dying of thirst. I really don't know who has an outside wedding in Mississippi but Paige hasn't even been accused of being too smart. I look over at her and she seems so happy. She and Josh are about to have their first dance as a married couple. I stand with the guys and watch as they enter the dance floor. They've obviously had lesions, they glide across floor in a swift pattern of swirls and turns.
When people start joining in Harry holds out his hand "Shall we?"
I look at Louis. " I don't dance love."
I smile at him quickly before taking Harry's hand. We don't twirl as well as everyone on dance floor but we have a great time.
   After a few songs I feel like I'm going to die of thirst. I motion to Harry that I'm going to get something to drink and he nods his head and keeps on dancing.
     After I grab my drink I go in search of Louis. I find him standing alone at the corner of the tent. "Hey what you doing over here alone?" I ask as I walk up.
     Louis looks at me and his eyes seem a little sad. "Just got a few things on my mind."
   I go stand closer to him but not so close that we're touching. I really want to touch him but I don't. "Anything you want to talk about."
    Louis shrugs "Nah it's alright." He smiles the sweetest smile and I can't help but smile back.
    "Um hello I'm Harry. Some of you may know me and my friends here tonight Niall Liam Louis we have been asked to sing a song for these lovely people here tonight so if you would join me please." I look at Louis and I'm about to tell him they don't have to sing but I see the excitement in his eyes and I don't say a word.
    The boys join Harry and they all look so amazing. Louis grabs the microphone "So I would like to say congratulations to Paige and Josh. We are honored to be able to spend this day with you and to be able to sign for all you lovely people. We've had a request I hear from one of our new favorite fans. We actually haven't done this song in a few years but hopefully we do it justice. This is The Way You Look Tonight." Niall somehow got ahold of a guitar and he sits down and starts playing. Liam starts singing and I get chills. By the time Harry starts singing I'm in tears. I've seen them perform so many times but with all the lights and smoke it's really hard to see the boys even as close as I able to get. Seeing them sing tonight is a totally different experience. It's so simple and pure and they perfection. I catch Louis' attention and he blows me a kiss. I want to scream out I love you but still I hold back. They finish the song and my little cousin Izzy runs up to Louis and asks him a question. He smiles and shakes his head yes. He stands by up and gets the microphone one more time. Well it seems that I have one more request. This is Look After You by The Fray. Niall started playing once more while Louis starts singing by himself. His voice is so clear and bright that I don't see how anyone could ever say he has a bad voice.
    Harry walks over and takes my hand and we begin to slow dance. After the day I've had I'm exhausted and I just lay my head on Harry's shoulder and close my eyes while Louis sings.
Harry leans down "Are you going to sleep?"
I look up at him, even though I have been around him almost every day for almost a month, sometimes the sight of him still takes my breath away. "No I'm just taking everything in." We are still dancing but we both turn to watch Louis.
Harry takes a deep breath. "I wish he knew how special he is." I look at Harry with a questioning look on my face and he continues. "Louis is the best person I know. I remember when we first met at the X factor and I thought he was the coolest guy there. He was so loud and outgoing I wanted to be just like him. I actually followed him into the toilet hoping I could meet him, and the first time I tried he walked away without saying anything. I was such a little creeper back then. I actually followed him back out of the toilet and introduced myself. I was so afraid he was going to call me out about it. A few days later he asked me for a picture and I wanted so badly to ask him for a copy but I didn't want him to think I was weird." As I'm watching Harry y'all about Louis I see al the emotions he feels travel over his face. "I thank God every day for Louis. I don't think I would have made it through everything without him there beside me. I hate the way people treat him. His voice is pure magic, way better than mine will ever be, it's so unique and lovely. I don't see how people don't see that. He's very self conscious about himself. He doesn't think he's good enough and the more I try to convince him that he is the best the more he thinks I'm just being polite. I wish
I could do something to show him how much he means to me and everyone else. I love him so much it hurts sometimes. I wish he loved himself that much."
I hug Harry closely. "Louis knows how much you love him and I think that's enough. He's told me that knows you two would have ended up together even if you weren't in the band because soulmates always find their way to each other. I can see how much you love each other and I think it's enough. You will always have each other and that's what matters."
I'm taken back to my thoughts from early. Louis and Harry will always have each other, but I won't always be with them. I try to shove the thought out of my mind. I don't want to be sad over the future right now and let it mess up the present. I want to spend whatever time I have with Louis and Harry being happy and making memories that I can carry with me forever.
Louis finishes his song and everyone explodes into cheers. His smile is brighter than any star out tonight and my heart aches to tell him how much I love him. He walks over to me and Harry as the band starts playing again. He holds his hand out to me. "May I have this next dance?"
I take his hand and he pulls me close. We sway back and forth for a minute. "I thought you didn't dance."
He shrugs his shoulders and smiles. "You and Harry made it look like so much fun I wanted to try it for myself."
After this last slow song the band picks up tempo again and everyone starts jumping around and waving like we are kids at a prom. Niall, Liam, Emma, and Bonnie all join us and we dance until I cannot feel my feet.
The reception finally ends around eleven pm and I'm so tired I don't even want to walk up stairs. I sit on the couch in between Harry and Louis. Everyone else goes off to bed and the three of us just sit there, enjoying the peace of each other.