THIS IS OUR MISTAKE

Chapter 4

It has been about 4 weeks since I found out im pregnant. No one knows except me and Jayla so far. I don't know how far along I am exactly but probably 2 months maybe a little over. I didn't tell my mom yet because I want to know what's going on with me and Cole first. We really haven't talked since the break up except for a few "heys" in the hallway at school. He said he wants to be friends but I don't. I'm scared to tell him about the baby. What if he doesn't want me or the baby. What if he doesn't want to keep it. What if he doesn't talk to me ever again. What if he couldn't even look at me!

Shut up, Amber! You have to tell him! For the good of you and most of all your baby.

I decided to invite Cole over to my house today after school. I pulled out my phone and struggled to type. I didn't want to do it, but I knew I had to.

Hey Cole. I know we haven't really talked since the break up but I have to tell you something. Can you come over to my mom's house after school?

I sent it. I didn't even abbreviate. This was a serious matter.

I got an instant reply.

Sure! :)

Wow. He actually wants to talk to me.

Ok thanks

I sent.

A few hours later

The last period bell rang and everyone rushed out of the door. The hallway was crowded with high schoolers of all ages. I made my way to my locker and gathered my things.

"Hey Amber." Jayla said.

"Hey."

"What are you doing later?"

"I um. I uh planned on talking to Cole about you know what."

"Ooohhhh. Ok. Well I wish you luck. If it comes to the worst possible scenario, just remember it's his loss. You are too good for him."

"Ok." I said getting a little nervous.

"Ok well see you later. Call and tell me how it went after. Ok?" She said starting to walk away.

"Ok I will! Bye!!!"

I locked my locker and walked out to my bus.

When I got home I went up to my room, put my bag down and laid down.

About an hour later the door bell rang. I got up, went down stairs, took a deep breath and opened the door.

"Hey." He said with a smile.

"Hey." I said faking a smile.

"Oh you can come in. My mom's at work." I said allowing him in.

We went in to the living room. He sat on the couch and I sat on the love seat.

"So how've you been?" He asked.

"I've been better."

"Look I'm sorry I did what-" he started to say and I just blurted out what I had to say.

"I'm pregnant." I said looking down.

It was silent for a few seconds and I looked up at him. He had a shocked expression.

"I'm pregnant with your baby. This is our mistake."

"Ok that was unexpected. How long have you known?"

"For a while."

"Like before we broke up?"

"Uh actually I found out like right after we broke up."

"Seriously?"

"Yeah. But uh. You don't have to stay. I just wanted to let you know. So you're actually pretty lucky, you can go live a normal teenage life so-" I said standing up and starting walking towards the door.

He stood up and grabbed my wrist. I turned around and looked at him. He looked me right in the eyes.

"Amber." He said. "I want to stay."

"What?" I asked.

"I want to stay. I want to help you with everything. I want to be part of it's life. I helped make it. I want to help raise it." He said holding both of my hands.

"But-"

"I know. I'm the one that broke up with you. But I didn't want to."

"What do you mean you didn't want to? "

"I cheated and I thought you deserve more than me. But I really really really missed you and I was a mess."

"You really want to stay with me?"

Then out of no where he leaned in and kissed me. At first I was shocked but I ended up kissing back. I really missed this. I thought to myself. We were passionately making out and he started leading me to the couch. He sat down and I climbed on top of him and sat in his lap. We made out some more then we pulled away to catch our breath.

I looked at him and leaned my forehead on his. His arms around my waist, my arms around his neck. I could stay like this forever. I thought to myself.

"So does this mean we're back together?" He asked.

"I don't know, does it?" I asked him.

"Yeah it does for me." He said with a smile.

"Ok." I said smiling too.

I didn't feel like arguing with him so I let him stay. We both laid on the couch and watched a movie. Again it was what to expect when you're expecting.

We were watching the movie and cuddling together.

His arm was around me and my head in his chest. I really missed him. I was laying there thinking about random shit when Cole put his hand on my stomach. I looked up at him and he was just watching the movie until he noticed I was looking at him.

"What?" He said with a smile.

I just looked down at my stomach and so did he. He was like

"oh! Sorry." And moved it to his side.

I grabbed his hand and put it back on my stomach. He smiled and kissed me. I leaned my head on his chest again and ended falling asleep.

I woke up at like 6:23pm and realized my mom wasn't home yet. So I went in the kitchen to get a drink. I grabbed a water bottle and right when I was going to take a drink I felt something grab me from behind. I screamed at the top of my lungs but realized it was just Cole. We both started laughing and we had a quick snack. After we finished he got up and had to go.

"Oh shit. I have to go babe." He said

"Ok." I said

He got up grabbed his bag, gave me a kiss and left. I didn't feel like doing anything so I went up stairs and laid down.