Two Faces (a kaisoo fanfic)

Chapter 9 : Planetarium

He is my key. I am his lock. He locks my sanity inside to keep me from going insane.

I.Love.You.

I never want this moment to end.

But it does. Like everything.

It's like the universe wants us to suffer. 

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The next week was more than I could ask for.....and less.

Each day was pure torture but I endured the pain for Kyungsoo.

My sight , hearing , smell , has became hazier each day. Everything became a darker shade of black and white than it was before. I would have to squint to see kyungsoo in the background. I could barely hear him unless he was laying in bed right beside me

But whenever I did hear him , he'd either be crying or blaming himself. The first few days after our night on the rooftop , I was able to tell him he was innocent in this situation , but now , I could only let our coarse whisperes.

We knew the media and exo members were wondering and demanding our location but selfish as I am , i can't afford to lose anymore moments with my everything.

We were in different worlds: me in the colorless dimension of Earth and kyungsoo in the colored vibrant world I used to be a part of.

I know , soon , I'll be in neither .

We spent the next week like this.

Him cuddling with me under the dirty white sheets and stayed there the whole day.

No . we didn't go on beautiful last dates like in the movies. What's the point , with my dying condition , I couldn't see the beauty in anything anymore. I could also see in kyungsoo's eyes , all he wanted to do was last by me and grasp my hand , afraid I might slip away any moment.

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The next morning was worse.

I couldn't open my eyes. That was , until , my body was shaken awake by small hands with a voice shouting my name mixed with a desparate sob. 

My eyes fluttered open and I reached up and held kyungsoo's shaking shoulders.

'Kyungsoo! Gwaenchanah? What's wrong?" I asked in a panicked voice.

"I thought....I thought... You left" he whimpered. " You're eyes didn't open."

I looked at him closely, squinting. This time, I could see him clearly. He looked like a nervous wreck. His face clearly showed signs of crying and staying up all night with eye bags .His shoulders weak and heavy with burden. This was exactly what I looked like when Kyungsoo left.

I can now finally see how broken he was , now, just thinking I was gone. 

As much as my body and soul want me to rot in bed all day, my love for Kyungsoo was greater. I dragged my limp body off the bed and changed into casual clothes after gesturing for Kyungsoo to change also. When we were done, I made my way through the apartment halls clutching onto the wall for support. Kyungsoo came in behind and helped me outside. He insisted me to stay home and rest, but I think he knows by now that I mean what I say. Hell, I even proved it to him in the most crucial way. I felt the moment was coming very soon.