Knives hiding in the slick smooth hands of your "friends" and when you turn you get stabbed over and over again. Just for them to watch you bleed out. Mouths running constantly about unknown untrue stories. Boys repeatedly breaking your heart without warning making you feel worthless. Ripping your heart out of your chest and stomping on it while laughing with their friends because it's "funny".
Buried treasure deep in the back of your mind that reminds and haunts you on a day to day basis. Ghosts of the past poking at you every single second of your day. Anxiety shaking you until you can't stand physically, until you can't stand people anymore. PTSD is best friends with the ghosts and anxiety, brings back the past and shakes you until you can't breathe. Oh it doesn't stop there now their cousins in town meet.. Depression. Constantly dragging you into the dark part of your head hugging you not letting you go, you're drowning.
Your eyes staring at the black walls all around you, the demons taunting you trying to make you give them what you want. You fight until your body gives up. You're then thrown into a cage, there's no key no escape you scream but nobody hears you. You're alone trapped in your own mind you fool nobody will hear you.
Your eyes flutter open slowly and you begin to realize that you have snapped back into the "real world". Who knows what the real world is like though. Your demons had let you out of the cage for a split second of happiness, don't worry hunny you'll get sucked back into the black hole as soon as your demons get hungry again. They seem to be hungry all the time why. That's something you will never be able to answer because if you talk to yourself you'll get locked up and labeled as crazy. Doctors will lock you away from the world with your demons not knowing it's tearing you up from the inside out.
One day, the demons won't let you go everyone you've ever learned to love will become a stranger to you. Who knows maybe you became the stranger. Maybe everything is your fault just like your ex's told you. Everyone you've ever met will leave you, nobody cares. Welcome to my dark reality.
