Weight-Loss Journey / Diary

About me

My stats: Height: 5'5

Weight: 57,2kg / 126 lbs

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I'm Suu and 18 y/o. To be honest I don't know where to start... I've been dieting for almost 3 years without any results. Sure I lost with stupid diets a bunch of weight but I instantly gained all the weight back.

Why do I even want to lose weight?

Pressure of the society, more conscious of my body ( I'm a dancer ) are the main reasons... Back in the days I didn't really care about what other people thought about me.. I played my P.C games and I was happy. However the more I was outside I became aware of my surroundings... As time passes I got so jealous of skinny people and also curious about "Fitness". So I kind of wasted my time with educating myself about ' what's bad food' (which should I not eat etc ) and things like Cardio or Hiit... I haven't found the key solution yet.... I'm still finding out by myself what could be the best for me.

I think Kpop made it worse for me. Please don't get me wrong I know that Kpop Idols are working so hard for 'it '->( Hardcore diets, schedule). But I can't help it and still look at their bodys and think... What they can do, can I do even better .... or If they can endure it, so can I.... I know this is so fucked up.. but sometimes I tend to think this way...

This year I didn't diet much... When I'm stressed out I tend to eat a lot high calorie stuffs like sweets, cakes and so on... thats why I gained also weight... I guess even more then I ever had. I would see myself as skinnyfat but I guess I'm not skinny anymore...

So I hope I can share more positive things then negative things :) and sorry for grammar mistakes.. English isn't my first language :')