subway [mh. 2020]

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-mention of abuse and rape-
2020.03.xx

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donghyuck was tired. tired of his daily routines, himself and his life, and despite it being a very common feeling, donghyuck had every right to complain. for as long as he could remember he would stay up dreaming about his mother and how she would come and rescue him one day, how she'd show up and take him far away from everything, from his father's abuse, from his trashed house and problems at school. but...
she never shows up. more than 13 years have passed and she still hasn't tried to contact or create a relationship with donghyuck. after all these years donghyuck didn't really care for his mother, didn't care whether she was alive or dead. he could no longer stayed hopeful. he felt hopeless and helpless and the dark feeling slowly started taking over his mind.

surrounded by fake friends donghyuck didn't know how to cope and desperately longed for someone's deep love and care for him. him being different to others wasnt of any help either, he was gay but also experienced monthly periods despite being biologically a male. he gradually became like a punching bag for his father and was always too scared to voice his feelings. he never learnt to embrace his differences but was instead surpressed for as long as he could remember. he was truly helpless in this world, he had no one to turn to for advice or support, no place to call home or anyone he could talk to about his father's abuse. the older donghyuck got however, the more he understood his situation. the more he understood how trapped he really was and this only lead to severe a anxiety disorder and depression for donghyuck. he was no longer the happy neighborhood kid that ran around screaming in joy and playing with just about anyone. he started shifting into an antisocial and depressed young adult and he hated every second of it. hated how he couldn't say hi to neighbours anymore, hated how his father sexually abused him despite being "disgusted by him", he hated how his own boyfriend recorded him and shared his rape video with his friends, hated how he couldn't push guys on the street away from him when they initaite something he didn't like. he hated everything. but he really had no one in this world.

moon taejoon was a scary person. he was scarily two faced. he was impulsive and careless and never cared if he hurt donghyuck. donghyuck didn't understand why they were boyfriends, why anyone would hurt the one they supposedly love but he had no power. he was simply too weak physically and emotionally. growing up he never experienced love and affection and taejoon gave him just that. in front of others he would treat donghyuck like a prince and despite it being only temporary, donghyuck craved that affection so much that he couldn't leave. donghyuck's childhood plays a big factor in his sensitivity and how easy he is to manipulate too but he loved taejoon. taejoon gave him everything no one else ever did. this is love, right?

unfortunately donghyuck has had enough. he could no longer stand his father or taejoon anymore. there was no purpose in him staying alive if no one truly cared. he figured no one would truly care or notice him being gone and maybe it'll even be for the best. he wanted to end all his pain and suffering. but deep down he knew he didn't actually want to die. a small part of him wanted to grow up and become successful, to own a fancy car and have a family but his dreams were not going to end all the abuse hes facing. his dreams won't put food on the table or put a roof on top of his head.
here he was. after a long two hour argument with his father he was finally allowed to go out. his father was no strong man either, deep doen both donghyuck and his father knew that donghyuck could easily tell on him and get him locked up. but he also knew that donghyuck's mental health wasn't stable and he wouldn't give up his father so easily. donghyuck said he urgently needed school supplies and despite his father being unemployed and them being financially unstable he let donghyuck go.
before donghyuck knew it, he was standing no on a bridge over an outdoor subway station. he took a deep breath before sighing. "this was nice. no more getting slapped with a beer bottle or getting called bloody hyuck" he says to himself with a small smile. however, as he lifts his right leg up he feels a firm grip tugging at his arm. he looks up and sees a man breathing heaivly. "what are you doinf young man!" he gets scareamed at. donghyuck snaps out of it. he slowly faces the other male fully with his leg still over the edge. he watches as people start whispering around him. he feels tears building up in his eyes before he removes his leg and falls to his knees sobbing. he cries so hard he barely understood what he was saying. "i can't do thus anymore! whats the point in trying!" he screams at the other young man that now has kneeled down in front of donghyuck. he pulls donghyucks fragile body to his chest and squeezes him tight. "please don't cry, love. what's your name?" the other male says eith a conforting voice. donghyuck feels himself melting at being called "love" and slowly whispers, "lee donghyuck". the other male continues holding donghyuck in his arms before yelling at some people to stop staring. "my name's lee minhyung but call me mark, okay? now you're coming with me, let's go" the latter says. a part of donghyuck wanted to be caucious but he truly had nothing to lose. donghyuck finally lifts his head up and looks at the older male with red eyes and pouty lips. "are you you're going to kidnapp me and sell my kidney? actually maybe you shouldn't tell me" donghyuck says slowly whisoering the second half to himself. "i promise i won't hurt you. i live alone a couple of blocks away, lets get you a cup of tea and we'll talk this out, okay?" mark says causing a small smile to crack on donghyuck's face. "why would anyone help a disgusting person like me?" donghyuck says softly as he feels mark pulling his body up from the ground. "shh don't ever say that about yourself" mark says with a firm voice causing donghyuckto go quiet.

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as tgey continue walking donghyuck's eyes widen skightly. "shit what time is it? how long have we been walking" he has been too focused on the older's warm hand on his and forgot all about his father. "we've been walking for about 20 mins we're almost there though I'm sorry you have to walk so much" mark says before paysing in his tracks to pull out his phone. "it's 19:46" he says as he shows donghyuck his phone screen. "donghyucj immedietly tenses up. "my dad's definitely going to kill me this time" he says as his eyes start to wander in fear. he looks up st makr and sees the confused yet angry expression on mark's face. "this time? what has he done to you before" he asks as his body completely faces donghyucks. "I-I don't know I just need to get home I don't want him to hurt me I-I" donghyuck feels himself starting to ramble and starts pacing back in forth quickly. "donghyuck stop!" mark says causing him to snap out of it once more. "I can't guarantee your safety so you're not going home tonight. stay with me, I'll help you" he says as he grabs both of donghyucks hands.

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shorty :P