The Spectre

Chapter Forty One : It Hurts

People at school stare at me like I'm someone that should be watched out for. I understand that in the first two weeks they must've been really frightened about what happened, and maybe even to me. I befriended a ghost and it's peculiar and scary, but it's been two months since the incident and yet I still get those weird stares. Students make way every time I walk down the halls, in the cafeteria, or at the school grounds. Even the teachers seemed weird every time I'm around. Like they're a bit distant from me. I can say that everyone does.

I'm still lucky though, Bom and CL were always there for me. After what happened they never left my side. I've been crying for several days, been delusional at times even. GD's disappearance made me feel weak and completely lost. I want answers but I don't know where to find them. If only I could just see him. Not like this..

Bora finally told her parents about her situation. Of course they got mad at her the first time. Bom, CL, and I were there when she confessed. I got scared I thought they would banish her or something. They just decided that Bora should stop attending school until she gives birth, and that after that she'll be transferred to the Beacon Academy. Her baby's father will be forever remain as a secret. After all that happened, Bora, and her folks decided not to have any connection with Jaejoong or whatsoever. I know Bora doesn't want that, but I guess it's for the better.

I sometimes visit Soo Jinn and her mom, they're pretty much okay now. It's a little hard for them every time they have to attend court hearings for the trial of GD and Jimin's death because they always see the faces of Gyuri and Jaejoong but they really tried hard to look strong. It was justice finally, and that's all they ever wanted.

I was thankful that my mom and aunt were also very supportive to me. I've received a few questioning and they even reprimanded me but after that they did understand everything and I felt much love coming from those two. We never talk about what happened after they talked to me but they never forget to always check and ask me if I'm okay. Most of the time, if I'm home, I just lock myself up in my room to think and then afterwards cry. After that incident I've always wanted to be left alone. I want some peace and quiet.

When night time comes I always stood in front of my window. I'm always hoping that someone would throw a pebble, or I would see someone standing at the driveway and that would be GD. I prayed a lot, even wished at every falling star I see, that he would suddenly appear in front of me. The first thing I'll do when that happens is to hug him tight. So very tight, that he would never vanish like that in front of me ever again. I miss him, all of him. His eyes, his smile, his laugh. His body close to mine.. I miss it all.. Damn I miss it all..

"When the time comes, I'll make a ruckus. And then you have to do whatever it takes for you to come up to that stage and tell everyone about what really happened." CL told me.

"And then after that you will show up at my side and we'll show them all that you're not as bad as they thought you were. We'll prove them that you're a victim. And that it was really Gyuri's and Jaejoong's fault." I smile as I tell those things at GD. He smiled back and nodded his head.

I laugh every time I remember that conversation. That was supposedly the plan, ourplan. But GD was so hardheaded he couldn't just follow everything according to plan. My laugh always end up in tears. I know he didn't follow because he wanted to stay by my side and protect me. He had always wanted to protect me. He wants to keep me safe. And that's because he loves me.

I couldn't think of anything. I no longer know what to do. I called Jinn and asked her where her brother's body was buried. It was Saturday and I can't think of anything to do. I'm going crazy.

She told me GD's body lay at Forest Lake. She gave me the instructions on how to get there. After a few minutes of getting dressed I left the house. It took me twenty minutes to reach the place.

I had a hard time finding GD's grave. I forgot to ask Jinn the exact spot where it is. I should've agreed to her offer of coming with me, but I want to be alone. I want to talk to his grave alone. I don't want Jinn to see me cry in front of GD's grave. I know it might make her cry too.

When I've finally found it, I stood and stared at it for awhile. I bit my lip as tears threatened to fall again from my eyes. I looked up at the sky to hold it back. The sky was dark and it looks like it's going to rain soon. I closed my eyes.

"Where are you, GD.." I whisper. I couldn't bear it anymore and I ended up sobbing. "I know you love me, I can feel it.. But why did you leave me.. You didn't even give me a chance to say that I love you too.. I am hurting.. Please don't do this to me.." I am already shaking because of my crying and my chest hurts. It really hurts.

I couldn't speak anymore so I just let myself cry. Not until someone placed a hand over my shoulder and whispered something in my ear.

(Annyeong! I have an update yay! Okay I have to add another chapter before the ending so here it is.. Hehe! I am so sorry if it's a bit of a cliffhanger and I hope you guys would understand. Araseo? Will be posting another chapter this weekend and am keeping my fingers crossed that I will be able to wrap it up by then. :) Thanks for all the reads and please don't forget to click that star. Hehe! Loveya'll!)