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"suicide isn't an option, you do matter."

"do i really?"

"yes, don't ever doubt that."

"oh, but i do."

"why?"

"because that's what happens when you hear rumors of you which nobody hesitates to believe.

even your own family.

even your own brother.

why did he have to die?

i want to at least know that he's somewhere feeling bad right now, for making me hang onto his story.

the way he holds the cliffhanger to what happens next."

". . . what rumor was it?"

dear diary,

she lost her virginity while being willingly "raped".

of course someone as sick as she is would want that to happen.

when he said she cried to him, telling him about her "rape" case, he came and told me with a worried look and a heavy heart.

i wanted to slap her for making him so anxious.

he is not her guardian.

all her mistakes should be dealt with by herself.

she doesn't know the feeling of being alone.

let her experience what i felt since middle school for once in her life.

most of all, i hated how he had spoken about her like she was the only girl in the world.

for days, he has only been worrying over her to me.

he never once asked how i was doing.

why did he lie?