Wish You Were Mine...~

Chapter 1: Broken-Hearted me.

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      I grabbed my backpack and left the house with no signs of eating. Yes I was hungry, but somehow I didn't have the mood to eat right now. I was hopeless and useless. Tch. While I was walking to school. My phone ringed again. 

"Sup Apelle, sorry about last night 🤧. I was just bored asf."

"It's fine,  make sure that doesn't happen again Nickki."

I placed it back in my pockets. My school was about 10 blocks away; and I was able to walked there instead of the bus or car. I hated seeing the city dirty. Trash on the streets, people wearing masks, many factories, dying plants and cut trees, and last is throwing trash in the ocean. I hated my life here. How did my friends even got use to this? How did they laugh instead of being shocked at the news? I was disappointed. My parents even discouraged me to help and recycle. Why was I even born here? I never get the best examples of love, why people here are cruel? I kept asking those questions in my mind nearly everyday going towards the school.

       "Yo Apelle! Why that long face?" Nick teased me but simply I ignored her. 

"Apelle, What is wrong with you today? Did I say something that hurt you?"

"No...it's...it's just the city." "Apelle! Come on, it's not that bad! Respect where you live-"

"I don't give a crap now." I walked off leaving her quiet in confusion. I stuffed my locker clumsily and went to class early as expected, I liked being alone and peace around me. No disturbance or embarrassing moments. I was like a nerdy type, not exactly. I meant I love to study and read books. Make my scores and grades high to make my family proud. And I was like one of the non expression people. Emotionless people. I never smiled or laugh. I just have a straight face looking right into you. 

       "Apelle!" Hell no, another moment. "What Nick?!; you keep disturbing me!" "I just wanna talk okay..? If yes, sorry bro from teasing you." "Tch. That isn't the problem." I glared at her.  "Fine, I surrender." I raised one eyebrow and turned back to the chapter I was reading on.

I was that kind of guy who does lots of multitasks. Music while reading, and blah  blah blah. If you ever wonder and know the musical kid song named sunshine lollipops. I hated it. I hated that song because it reminds me of how I use to be mean to people. It makes me rather upset and stress because it makes me wanna drown.

"Hey Apelle, What are you reading 'bout?" "Huh...oh it is about "under the scarlet sky". No doubts, but it is awesome I swear!" "Seems tough, that seems also interesting, sorry for disturbance. You can continue." He smiled and I appreciate people who lets me have my own business. I might be fan of books. But I only read them if I get bored, not for knowledge. 

        Once again, I saw the girl I liked that entered my class. My heart beated faster and my blushing came intense. I think she noticed me, oh shit! "Hey Apelle, you look red. Are you alright?" "Y-Yes... I'm definitely fine!" "If you say s-" boys interrupted her, and said "oh! Apple has a crush! " they taunted and laughed and I stayed quiet and calm. "Sorry about them, I understand and feel the way you feel." She smiled and I nodded. I'm not very talkative  but it seems I am on writing. I hated when our teacher is absent, my bullies would start bullying me and embarrass me in the class. I sighed and went to the bathroom washing my hands and face. "It seems impossible, life here can never even change at all. Not even a little..." I talked to myself and mostly of all, when boys passed by. They looked at me with that disgusted and confused face. Which was kind of funny in my opinion. As soon as I went out, I saw her and..oh yeah her name is Amanda. She was with another boy. Which broke me down. I ran away, feeling homesick and ran to my house. I opened the door in full speed while tearing down.

    "Dear! What happened?!" "NONE OF YOUR GOD DAMN BUSINESS MOTHER" I stomped upstairs and laid on my bed clumsily once again. "I knew it, I'm never ever ever perfect! And why was I even born?" Tears went down my cheeks and my mattress starts getting wet. I decided to be absent for a day to remain calm.

                                                                                 One night later

I went to the toilet and started brushing my teeth and wash, just before I do that. I look up on the mirror and judged myself.

"Your just a useless brat, a worthless and friendless asshole that no one wants to have. I'm just a broken-hearted me and a broken minded. My h.h god, why was I ever born?" 

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