Jaheim🖤😏
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"So where did it start?" One of the members in group therapy asked me
Our therapist Ms.Walbyrd let us speak freely today. On why were here , what sent us here and what we're looking forward to in the future.
"Man I kept getting into it real bad with my girl. I mean physical contact and all. I messed up real bad. Instead of just doing it right and communicating more I spazzed every time. And pushed her away every time. The dude she with now or talking to they met through her sister's sister and the dude so happens to be her sister's brother if that's not confusing so like I caught them flirting or whatever now mind you I knew my girl... she was a flirt big time but it was never really on a major level of disrespect then this guy come around and it's like man.. I felt like I just slowly started losing her to the point 1 night when I confronted the situation it just got bad and from there the problems were worse. Man this girl had my head super messed up. I was all balled up in the corner crying. I was acting like a little bitch... and you know...losing my sanity. "awwww She don't love me no moreeee!" And shit like that. Excuse my profanity." I Said looking at Ms.Walbyrd
"Your okay. Express yourself." She Said
"But yeah I was heart broken .. we had the baby on the way and things were cool I thought everything was good. *shrugs* I guess not. So I started getting stressed out about it smoking heavy, drinking a lot until 1 night after we had a maternity shoot I brought it up. I did some shit that I would never ever do that's when I know I HAD a problem. So boom... we get past that she forgives me and we move on... man shit really got bad after the baby came. My daughter was born in July. And her mama ain't waste no time... she was taken my baby and leaving the house late. Leaving me and my son. Like my baby mama could be real evil as fuck! she was on her hoe shit for real and again NOTHING WAS WRONG. But everybody swore she was innocent... I still ain't say nothing. I kept ignoring it til I got tired again then I was just like fuck it ...let me do me... shit she doing her. She still claim she ain't have sex with dude but she was giving him way too much attention for free and he was spending way too much money on her and my baby for Nothing... man I was hot. I went crazy. I kept that shit bottled up long enough. And what hurt the most I would bring the whole world to this girl if I could and put it in her hand I just don't know why I wasn't enough. I always had a thing for her even with the reality of how we met and how Our relationship together grew ... but I always knew if I chilled with a bih and settled down it will be with her. But she had to play me. And like a dumb ass I had to react to it in the worse way.... man I tried to fucking kill that girl. I feel bad about it now but then I didn't. My heart still break over that shit but it breaks more when I think about how I tried to handle it. It wasn't really gone solve nothing. I remember just smoking,drinking and crying... calling my mama and my niggas talking to them about her. Man I was fucked up. But what was I really supposed to do? Plus the relationship was beginning to be too much for the both of us. All I wanted was her to have the baby. And to Move her out her parents crib and then marry her once we were in our own shit. I guess she found her happy ending somewhere else. It don't matter how much time pass and I THINK I'm moving on that shit hurt seeing her be with the next nigga and the next nigga making her smile. Him touching her and doing everything I used to do and lord knows what else like man it be eating at me but you just gotta shake that shit off. Especially when you got kids. I got 2 kids a lil girl with her and my son King that you met Ms.Walbyrd from a previous relationship." I Said
"Damn." A girl name Misty said shaking her head
"Is she young?" Another group member asked
"I know... shit cut throat. And yeah she's young...very. But that was bae though... she still is she just don't know." I Said smirking
"So your doing this for her? To win your girl back?" A lady name Jackie asked me
"Nah Ms.Jackie... this is for me and my kids. I don't want to be a lunatic I don't want them afraid of me. I need my pride and dignity...However in the end when all this pays off hopefully I can ease my way back into her life a little if her nigga don't mind.. if he ain't hating I at least want to get my baby mama back and alone to myself sometime." I Said laughing as a guy name Dre reached out to slap me five
"I hear you boy." He told me
"For real.. and that shit done got so thick. Oh my god." I Said shaking my head thinking about Tiri
A lot of the people in the room laughed.
"Okay Jaheim." Ms.Walbyrd said before joining everyone in laughter
I shrugged.
Shit I was being Honest.
But if Tiri was smart she definitely wouldn't let me fuck. I swear on god I'm putting another baby in here I don't care what she gotta say or how fool feel. They just talking while me and her got a whole family. 🤷🏽♂️ How I'm wrong? That's mine.
Everybody had a word around the room. We talked about our next meet. I guess you can say I'm succeeding and I'm less angry. lmao Ms.Walbyrd want me to become a mentor. I'm thinking about it because I'm kind of already King's Mentor.
