Was feeling better these days
Thanks to you, my angel
But I guess we never know
when she's coming back
She's not even really there
But I know she's involved
Im not just tired and thinking about random things
Im exhausted and deeply killing my mind with scared dark thoughts
Theres something huge happening to me soon
It's starting next month
Kinda hard to explain but it implies life
Not mine, this time
And thats scaring me
Again
Its not my brain anymore thats telling me I'm nervous
Its my body
I feel like I have to pass an exam
I have the stress I had when I was about to play piano in front of ppl
Except this time its a constant stress
Hands are shaking
Head is hurting
Sad songs on my ears
Dont know if I'll be able to sleep
So I think about you
Yeah, you, little perfect sunshine
Please take care of your ass
Cause if I ever get to lose you
I wont survive
I'd probably feel better in your arms
Youre my security
But this chapter is sad and I'm happy when I think about you
At least I have to
Cause I can't help smiling by the thought of you
So lets talk about you in the next chapter, okay?
See you there baby
Why, just why
Are my hands shaking again
Didnt talk to my crush a lot today cause I was a bit busy
Was I, really?
Btw my crush is actually my girlfriend
Like wtf I have a girlfriend
Shit's real now
Wow.
Enjoy and fake your nervous smile,
Your dumbass bitch
YOU ARE READING
Can't deal with it
PoesiaI thought I could start a book about my not so random thoughts. About love, sadness and loneliness. Can't guarantee you'll be happy after reading my texts. But still, enjoy.
