IF ONLY

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"Hi, this is frustating, right? It's okay. Just pretend that we don't know each other." He said, he then casually walk away from me as what he told me. I never know that someone could be this different in ages. Is he really someone I used to know?
I keep questioning myself as if this is not a dream. If only I know that he studies in the same university, I would never ask my dad to send me to this univ as well.
But, what's with that look... Is he still loving me? Or, he just hate me?

"Ha Yeon-aaa!!! What are you doing? Let's have a meal. Don't you wanna go get some spicy rice cakes?" Han Gyul and Mi Rae yelled from far away, they make too much noises, but I love them.

"I don't really hungry, why don't you guys go to the cafe by you two? I need to get done something." what? What is that? Why I am doing this to myself. Am I really going to search where he is after what I've done to us?
"Woah, look who is talking! Our cry baby seems to gain so much confident after our best lecture called her. What did she do to you, huh? Tell me.." Han Gyul said again.
"Haha, nope. It's nothing to do with her. I really should go. I'll call you guys."
I leave them with those questions they yelled as I run.

Where did he go...

Where did he...

I don't believe that meet him after these long periods of time would be this hurt. How could I be this person who is looking for him after everything?
It's really hurt my feeling that now I couln't read his mind.

I am searching in almost every corner, he wasn't here or there. But if I am not mistaken, if he is still the same person I used to love, I know where he would be.

I am facing the library's door, take a deep breath. I know that this place is quite big so I won't see him directly. But, still.. Imagining we are in the same room, got me really nervous.

There are several kids reading in a very silent way, some just burried themeselves in and don't even got bothered by my precenses.

Some guys in the corner stares at me, and now I am the one who got bothered I think. But right when I want to step back, I saw a beautiful silhouette, holding a book, but not reading it... He has been sleeping with the kisses from the sunlight in his cheeks. The moment I saw him really hurt me.

Oh God, I miss him.

I approach to his sit, standing with a full of worry. How if he doesn't want me to come? What if he really meant what he said?

He moves...

I guess I block the light

He takes a deep breath, but doesn't lift up his chin.

"What do you want?"
He said, in a lower voice.

"Can we talk outside?" I ask him a favor.

He stands up and walk right away without even looking at me. I follow him.

He headed to the chair under the big tree, which remains me to the old days when we used to talk in that kinda legendary tree on our school too.

"Do Hyun-Oppa!"

But he fastener his steps.
He walks away, again.