Years passed by, Me and Chester is official now. But his condition getting worst. I am preparing myself yet i know i am not ready yet.
I am worried about him so i decided to call him but he is unattended.. so i did just call his mom. It rangs and she answered it.
"Hello?" I said.
"Miracle? Where are you?" His mom asked.
"I was worried for Chester. Im on our house.."
"Go to the St. Qamarians Hospital now. We decided to take Chester there. He was in bad condition right now." I dropped my phone. I hurriedly dressed up and go to the hospital. I even bumped on someone, i did just say sorry and hurriedly asked the nurses where is his room but no one answered me.
So i did just find it on my own. Atlast, i saw his family outside ICU room. No...
I sat besides his mom.. she hurriedly hug me..
"Thank you for staying at my sons side even though he is ill."
"You dont need to thanks me. Its my choice to love him and stay by his side." I started to cry.
After many minutes, the doctor allows us to go inside but we need to wear hospital gown, hair nets and mask.
His family let us talk to each other, he is awake now but his heart beat getting slow.
"Love?" I said.
He smiled. A weak one.
"Please.. fight.."
He hold my face then smiled.
"I was so lucky to met you. I was so very lucky to became your man. I was so very much lucky because you stay by my side. Im sorry if i make you cry. Im sorry for not being a perfect man for you. I can't stand and walk. I cant do what your ideal man can do. Im sorry if i have this kind of illness. Im sorry if i cant stay by your side. I m sorry for everything. Miracle, i love you i always do. Even if i die, its you my only love."
"Please.. dont say that. You told me that you will marry me. You tolde me that we will have children? A little Miracle and Chester. Please hold on. Please..." i started to cry.
He wipe my tears. "Please dont cry. Im tired.. im sorry for not fighting, i tried to fight for you. I tried everything to make my life more longer. I tried.. but i failed. Please dont cry Miracle.. i dont want to see you crying."
I hold his hand and kissed it. "Dont tell me that.. stay please.. stay.."
"Im sorry. Find another better than me. I am ready to die.. i dont want you guys to cry because of me. Please..." he wiped my tears off.. "I love you always you Miracle Eris Jung."
"Dont... please..."
"I want to rest. I am tired.."
"No..no... please.."
He slowly closed his eyes. I heared the noise of the machine indicating that his heartbeat gets low and low...
Im crying and hurt the same time.. the doctor tried to save him but they failed.
"Time of death. Four o'clock."
Its done. He died. In the same time we met, in the same date we met and the same day we must celebrate our anniversary.
I went home feeling died. I go to my room and cried. He died. He leave me.
I saw blade on my book shelf. I get it,
I will follow you, my love
I started to cut my pulse.. i want to scream but i want this i want this...
I cut off so many. My vision getting blured. Until i saw my door opens.. and black out.
I know i will not be in his side because i tried to kill myself.
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As soon as i open my eyes. I was laying on a hospital bed. Having a big bandage on my pulse. I should die.
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I stayed here at his grave. It is 1st death anniversary and also our 3rd anniversary.
"Its hard for me to let you go. But i have no choice. You choose to let me go.. you choose to die rather to fight. But i still love you. You still in my heart."
I said then put a flower above his grave. Tulips.
Its already 4' oclock so i must go home and faced my new life without him.
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