The Life Of Peanut

What will I do ?

     A week had passed since Kevin raped me. The party is this Saturday and i'm not even in the mood to go anymore. Ever since Kevin did that to me I've been to myself. I hadn't told anyone because of what Kevin threatened to do if I did tell anyone. This is starting to stress me out.
      I had just got out of school, I was so tired so I just went to sleep. A couple of hours later mama walked in my room and told me to come downstairs to help her put up the groceries. I got up and walked out of
my room. When I got down stairs Kevin was just walking in the house. "Peanut put those canned goods in the pantry, hey baby" she said while walking up to Kevin and hugging him. Her back was facing me. When I looked over at them hugging Kevin was looking at me with cut eyes. I looked away. "Baby girl remember what I told you." Kevin said looking at me. "What you tell her?" My mama said smiling and kissing him. "Had a father and daughter talk she know what I'm talking about." He said smiling. That man disgust me. I can't hold this secret, I can't deal with this anymore. I finished putting up the groceries and went to my room. I looked in my mirror. "Lord why me! I'm only 17!" I cried. I prayed to god and asked him what should I do. I felt as if I should tell mama privately. I decided to tell her tomorrow since Kevin was going to be at work when I got out of school and mama was going to be home with me.

        When I got home from school I put my things in my room and went down stairs with my mama. She was sitting on the couch drinking a glass of wine. "Hey baby how was your day?" She asked me. "It was ok, mama can I talk to you for a minute?" I asked her. "Yes baby go ahead what's wrong ?" She responded. "If I tell you promise me you won't get mad." I said looking down. "Tell me Peanut." She said. I took a deep breath "Last Sunday when you were gone to the casino with your friends, Kevin came in my room raped and beat me." I said tearing up. "Kevin raped you? Why are you just now telling me Peanut? Go in yo room and i'm gone  handle him when he get back." She said now angry. I didn't say anything I just got up and did as I was told. When I got to my room I just thought about everything. Maybe I shouldn't have told her, what if he kill her like he planned to do if I told anyone? As I thought deeply about the situation I fell asleep.

Keisha's POV
     I can't believe Kevin would do something like this. I really hope he didn't rape that damn girl. I can't believe it, he got a beautiful woman standing right here in front of him that satisfies his every sexual desire. Why would he rape her?
       Kevin walked in the door a couple minutes later on the phone. "Wassup baby." He said kissing me on the lips. "Kevin get off the phone we need to talk." I told him. Kevin got off the phone and put all his attention on me. "Why did you rape Peanut?" He looked at me confused and shocked. "Mane here you go with the shit. What the fuck you talking about ? I'm a grown ass man what the fuck I look like having sex with a seventeen year old?" He said furiously. "That's what Peanut came down here and told me, she said you raped and beat her the night I was at the Casino with my friends, so did you do it?" I asked. "Did I not just fucking say I didn't touch that little ass girl! I look at her as if she was my daughter bruh! Why would I go touch on her? I'm out this hoe. I'm finna go cause she bull shitting and you a dummy for believing her!" He said yelling at me. "Baby I don't believe her don't go!" I said crying. He ignored me. And just like that he got his shit and left. Peanut ruin every damn thing for me, I knew I should have aborted her when I found out I was pregnant with that nigga child. I can't even keep a man because she always got to mess it up for me. Why did I even open my legs to that nigga? When I told him to leave my life years ago I should have gave him his daughter too.

Peanuts POV
         A couple hours later my mama woke me up and told me to come down stairs. I got up and walked downstairs. When I got in the kitchen my mama was looking at me as if she was disgusted with me. "Why would you accuse my man of raping you, you never liked Kevin that's why you lied on him! He's gone now! He packed everything and left me just like your father did! You ruin everything for me!" She said yelling and crying. "But mama I swear I'm not ly-!" "Get the fuck out of my face Peanut." I just ran to my room and cried. I didn't wanna be here anymore. I couldn't believe my mama believed Kevin over me. How could she? She's my mother, I should come before Kevin. Never in a million years would I have thought my own mother would put a nigga before me, I'm her only child.