My Demonic Appearance {My Demon Butlers 2}

Chapter VI. Cursed

Days were long. Nights were like the day. Normally I should have felt some freedom in this, about not seeing him together with Ciel. But things were different this way, of course. The thought that I had driven him away from me, that thought was just crazy.

'I don't know if the new butler will arrive tomorrow. Actually, it is strange that Sebastian would have arranged that before he left. Normally you would think that demons are capable of living without human butlers.'

I did not respond to Ciel. It had only been a week since Sebastian left and it felt like someone had torn out my demonic soul. But why was this so much different? Was it because he had left me instead of me leaving him constantly? Was it because of the things I said to Ciel about the pawn? In the letter, he called me a queen. But I was nothing more than a useless pawn myself. With Sebastian leaving, I was thrown off the board, done playing. Without him, it felt like my existence held no meaning.

The first two days I searched for him, but of course I could not find him. It was impossible for me to search the entire world for one demon. He would make sure, that even if I was capable of searching the entire world, that I could not find him. It was an order from his young master, of course he wouldn't let me find him.

I looked at Ciel who was drinking a cup of coffee with a strong aroma of milk and sugar. After all these years he could only appreciate sweets the most above all. And the standard cups of tea.

'Why are you avoiding talking about him, Katherine?' asked Ciel when I remained silent. 'Why haven't you even dared to ask me something about it? Don't you have any questions at all?'

'There is no point in asking questions. There is no point in trying to figure this all out.'

'Truly? I find that rather hard to believe considering the fact you have barely talked to me. If there was no point in finding anything out, I would have expected a better mood around here.'

I glared at him. Furious about him trying to make small talk about this. Even though I knew that eventually I was the one to blame for Sebastian's absence, I was angry at Ciel for sending him away so casually.

'You can glare all you want. Just don't think badly of me. I did what I thought was best.'

'Sending him away from me isn't the best. Not for you, nor for me.' I answered.

Ciel chuckled in his cup of coffee and shook is head. 'It was his choice.'

I could not keep down my anger. My entire body was screaming. The loss of Sebastian was moving through my entire body.

'I can't believe you just made him leave. For over hundred years you have kept him closely next to you, even when I stayed with you guys, you have never bothered to send him off. And now, when he thinks it is for my benefit to leave, you suddenly change your mind and send him away? If you did not care about his presence at all, you could have just sent him off with me!' My voice trembled; my hands were shaking. My pink eyes were glaring at him, showing him my discontent about his choice.

'There is no point in sending him away if it wasn't for his own benefit.' Ciel replied.

'What do you mean: 'no benefit'? You would have made us amazingly happy.'

Ciel frowned at me. 'Are you sure about that?' I wanted to nod fiercely, but he interrupted me. 'I mean, really sure? Remember, he may be gone now, but he is still under my supervision. He will always do as I want him to do. Even when he is far away, I will still be his master. Right now, you know what I want him to do, because I tell him while you are in our presence, but if you are somewhere far away and I give him an assignment, you will never know what he is doing.'