Karmagisa One-Shots!

Pride month Karma X Nagisa!

~Nagisa's POV~

June 1st. It's pride month now, no matter how much you wanna hide from it, it's pride month. Not saying I want to hide from it necessarily. My mother makes me hide from it. Despite her constant rambles and fits of me being a girl, she wants me married into a happy straight family with a beautiful wife. Of course she suggests Kayano but we're just really good friends, nothing more.

Now you might be wondering why any of this matters. It matters because I'm gay. I like guys, I always have liked guys. It's nothing I've ever really had to discover throughout my life because it's always lingered as a constant. I know others struggle with this kinda thing, but that's just not me.

Pride month is one of the very few times I allow myself to show signs of my sexuality whether it be cracking jokes or drawing rainbows on my assignments. Though I'm too big a wimp to actually come out of closet. It's always been a dream of mine but no matter what it's gonna stay only a dream.

***

I've been hearing strange whispers all around school today. I can't make out exactly what they're saying but the few words I can understand are 'Karma' and 'Gay'. Now I really wanna believe what they're saying is true but they're most likely just making fun of him. People do that.

My curiosity is bothering me about the words though, something about them makes my stomach do cartwheels and flips. It makes my heart race and my ears heat. It's a feeling I can't describe. Is this...love?

Ok fine, I'll admit it. I love Karma Akabane. He's been my best friend for years so you could understand why. It's just something about him that puts butterflies in my stomach, all dancing around like they're gonna die tomorrow. He's the one I dream about at night; he's the one I fantasize and daydream about. He's the one who's lips I can only pray that one day I can feel against mine in all their glory. Never would another's embrace satisfy me.

...that's never gonna happen. Let's be honest here, even if he were to mysteriously be gay then he would most definitely not settle for someone so dull minded and unattractive as me. He'd go for someone like Isogai or Itona. Hell, I'd even say Terasuka rather than me. Literally any other than me he would want to date.

But despite all the odds, there's something in my gut that tells me to at least ask the sexuality question. This lunch period is gonna be a strange one is all that I can say.

***

I asked Karma to come outside behind the small shack in the back of the school. I told him that under no circumstances should anyone follow him. He had a small laugh and a small tease when I asked but I'm too far into this to care. I need to satisfy my aching mind and put it to ease!

Just as he was asked to, Karma shows up behind the school. Immediately I can notice two things out of the ordinary for him: his black jacket was off and I could see a little bit of red scattered all over his face. He was left in just a plain white shirt, nervously looking at me like he was in some sort of trouble.

I swallow a lump in my throat, preparing for the task at hand "S-so," I finally spoke up "There was something that I was wondering about you regarding this months theme."

I could see his face shifting, looking like a deer in the headlights of an oncoming airplane "What would you wanna know about it?" He questioned, trying to hide his nervousness behind his signature devilish smirk despite it being so blatantly obvious.

"Karma, is it true that you're gay?"

I could see a look in his eyes, a look I thought originally as panic. Looking closer, it seemed to be nothing more than worry. I don't know why he's worried but something tells me he didn't like the question.

"If you're gonna make fun of me then just do it, goddamnit. Yes, I'm gay." Karma answers defensively, his eyes beginning to water "I don't even know how people figured out but I've been getting made fun of all day! If you don't wanna be my friend then say it!"

I was shocked by the answer, yet also very upset that he had been facing difficulties due to it. Nothing hurts worse than being made fun of for who you like on this planet, it's not our choice who our mind says we're attracted to. Unless you're one of those people who acts gay or something for attention, you're not cool or hip, you're an asshole

Quickly I reply "I never said that, Karma! I just asked because...because..." I say hesitantly, feeling my body subconsciously quivering "I'm gay too."

Karma's eyes shot open, a gasp escaping his as he stares at me with his beautiful golden eyes. I would have fallen into a trance staring at them if it wasn't for the necessity of blinking. 

Without saying a single word or anything of the sorts, he takes several steps towards me until he finally lands in front of me. Barely a centimeter of distance was put between us, those oddly familiar butterflies appearing again just like that. After a moment of hesitation, he leans down and ever so smoothly places his lips against mine, no words needed to be said anymore. We both knew what we were thinking.

I was surprised at first by the kiss but after a moment, it seemed all too correct. He places his hands against my hips and I snake my hands down his arms, clenching his shoulders. The kiss only gets hotter when he dips his tongue into it, exploring all the crevices of my mouth. It was amazing, even better than they were in all of my daydreams or even wet dreams.

After about a minute, he pulls off for air and hugs me with a smile on his face. The cautious and once saddened eyes he had were now filled with life and excitement. Tears of joy ran down his face as we exchange glances of pure happiness.

"Huh. I honestly should've expected this from you, Nagisa." Karma said mischievously "Don't think I don't see you glancing at me constantly in class!"

"Oh hush, Karma. You've got to room to speak, you probably stare daggers at me." I say, playfully punching his arm.

He rolls his eyes dismissively "Oh, and not to mention some rather peculiar videos I saw on your computer at your house the few times I spent the night."

"...Am I busted?"

"You are."