My Words

Drift away

I had the world all to myself that early morning. The countryside as i walked through, it was deserted and still. I have spend half of my life going to the forest, in the same direction and on the same route. My uncle always took the other one (so that we won't cut all the trees from the same side). We go every day to chop some woods. The wood helps to keep our bodies warm and our stomachs full.

This was like everyday and like every same walk of my life. But why did it feel different, like everything around me had never been there before? The green trees, the birds singing? I had never admired them before since...well..

I was separated from my parents and my brother because of an accident. I was only eight. Since then i have lived with my aunt and uncle. The engulfing desolation during the incident kept the memory fresh in my mind. For a week i had cried because I had lost all hope to live. Then my aunt and uncle adopted me. They always treating me like their own daughter. Unfortunately, they never had any children and I never had any friend. I spend most of my time isolated and alone in my uncle's farm.

I never got to go to school. Even with my utter desire and love for learning, I never got a chance to join a school. There is no school in our village. There never was nor will be. The only one is miles away. This part of the country side has remained unchanged in the last twenty years. No deployments, no advancement. There is no possibility of abandoning our home and moving to a new area because all of our family's fortune laid here.

My evening are spend reading books or lazily gazing stars. Sometimes I feel so isolated like there was no one except me in this universe. No one beside me, no one to talk to.

A slight blow of warm wind touched my face and mingle with my hair. I realized that I was still there, still on the same route, on which i have always been. I just let my thoughts drift. Thinking about everything negative around me. The part of my life that I was never able to see, the positive side, it was there. The positive always gets overshadowed by the negative. Even though I lost my parents and my brother, i still have a family. People that are there for me. I was just too ignorant and selfish that i never saw them.

At that very moment i knew that as miserable as life might seem, there always is something to live for. Let the positive take over. And i am going to do it for me.