ASHTONS P.O.V
I got home 2 weeks ago but haven't left the house yet. I don't go upstairs cause all I see is my mom lying all over the place and it hurts.
It's a Saturday after noon and I'm just sitting on the couch staring at the knife I use to slit my wrists, it still haunts me the sound of the twins screams, Georgia's crys the sirens its the worst.
I heard a knock at the door and I just ignored it, it wasn't worth my time.
The door opened and I remembered I hadn't locked it. Two little kids ran in Luke and Mia to be precise. They looked the same luckily. They ran up to me and hugged me "ashes home! Yay!" They screamed.
"Come on we have to go get that lift with Trevor" Mia said.
"Trevor...." I managed to say.
"Auntie Gs new boyfriend." Luke said.
New boyfriend...............that shouldn't matter to me.
"Guys come on, you said you where only here to say hi the others are here to do something important." A guy said who I think was Trevor.
"Oh yesss they here to bring ashy outta a sshrump" Luke said running towards the door. "It's slump dummy" Mia said running towards the door.
When the door closed it opened again, I didn't bother looking I just stared at the knife for longer.
"He's staring at a fucking knife." A voice said which I'm pretty sure was Nick. I looked up at Nick,Tiffany, Georgia and Meghan. They started talking but I went blank and wasn't listening.
"Ash....Ash? Ashton!" Someone snapped waving a hand in front in my face. I looked up at Georgia then back at the ground. "You can't just be like this, what's wrong" she asked.
I still stared at the ground. "Ash Hun were worried please help us help you" Meghan sweetly said as I looked at her. "I'm lost....." I mumbled.
"Your what?" Nick questioned sitting on the table. "He's lost—" Tiffany said sitting next to me on the other side. "—he doesn't know where he fits in or who he is any more he feels like he's outside. He doesn't know who we are anymore or what we've become.....he feels like the worlds moving on but he's just stuck on that one incident"
I looked at her with vulnerable eyes, I was shocked she could see through me and my bullshitty attitude.
"Wow is that how you feel" Georgia asked. I looked at her my eyes raked over her body, she was wearing black denim skinny jeans,a red shirt that says fearless on it with a black leather jacket with a choker. I nodded "your so different" I mumbled.
She sighed "open your hand" I did that as she took off the two extra piercings and put them in my hand. "There keep them I'm not gonna be using them anymore" I stared at them and then put them in my pocket and looked at her "thanks...." I mumbled.
"How are we supposed to fix the way he feels" Nick asked flicking he's hair back.
Tiffany shrugged while lighting a cigarette and putting it in her mouth. I stared at her and she immediately took it out and turned it out "shit i forgot we're not supposed changing heh" she said chucking the cigarettes to Meghan whose the one who normally smokes.
