6/4/19 -Right now I don't feel good at all. I have to go to basketball practice and I DO NOT want to go. I hate it and it doesn't make me happy at all. I feel sick and tired. I know I'm not caring for myself correctly, since I woke up at 12:00, never showered and laid in bed for about 2 hours. Anyways my sister is going to my "best friends" house. I'll see you soon.
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Next Day 6/5/19
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Today is my brothers birthday which is great!! I'm so happy for him and hope his day is a lot of fun. Anyways yesterday I went to basketball practice and I was literally light headed the WHOLE time. Like I actually thought I'd pass out. Anyways it wasn't that fun. After that I went to pick up my sister and actually ended up staying with her and my best friend for a couple of hours. Then my dad picked us up and I went home (to my grandmas)
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Right now I'm sitting on a bench while my sister and her friends swim. It's not really enjoyable just typing away on Wattpad. I'd like to actually have fun. I didn't do anything productive at all today and I sorta feel bad for myself since I'm unmotivated and can't do anything. I hate how my sister can get along with so many people. I'm just some introverted nerd that can't make any friends. I also feel like my family, friends, and literally anyone around us prefer my sister over me. She's only 9 and has already done so much more than me. I feel worthless compared to her. She's got everything planned out and I have nothing. She's getting spoiled and I'm still over here with the newest things i have we're from a few months ago. I'll keep you updated on anything else about this topic soon. Talk to you guys later. -N.B 🔲
