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I love my job. Drawing and drawing. Yep, I'm an artist. Freelance artist it is. I hate being an office worker, it's either you don't get the decent wage or you should wake up in the fucking morning. Actually, waking up in the morning ain't that bad too. I mean, recently I've been wake up early. I live by my own, and it feels really good when you can feel the morning atmosphere at your own castle.
When I woke up, I usually make a cup of coffee or tea, then go to my library and then starts sipping my drink and read some goddamn book. After that I took a shower. Actually, I'm not the type of person who loves schedule. No. I don't even have it. You know, your life is being controlled by your own schedules if you had one. I hate being controlled. lmao
There's nothing wrong with today. Just another day for me. Maybe relaxing, or monotonous. I hate and like my life at the same time. I like it because it's pretty chill and relaxing. And I hate it because sometimes it is too monotonous. I love drawing. I draw everyday. But sometimes it's really damn boring.
People who know me know that I like anime. And I'm not that type of person who's embarrassed of my hobbies. Oh, wait. Except for explicit content. I won't tell them.
And here it is. I got a crush on someone that doesn't even exist. Dazai Osamu. I love him, everything about him. He's unique and attractive, I know. It's true and the truth. I know I won't be able to meet him. Of course, duh. But I still have this feeling that tells me I love him. Couldn't get rid off of it. I still haven't have a crush on someone until now because of him. It's not like I want a partner or anything too. I just like what I like. Love what I love. That's it.
Speaking of which, actually today I got an important task from my client. Well he said I should draw something that is precious to me, and give it to him. It's not a hard one actually, since I already draw it a lot too. And guess what? He even said he'll pay me more than 1.500$. And I was thinking if he's crazy or just loss his mind or what, then I asked to him why did he want to pay me that much. He said he just feels like it. Couldn't accept that, I told him maybe he should pay me like normal prices I put on my price tag. He ignores it and then still saying he would pay me more than 1.500$.
I suspect him at first, but eh. I don't know too. We'll see it later. And since I get a lot of benefits, maybe yea sure I guess. And to be honest, I'm not the person who likes money by the way. Too lazy to explain things, so...
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I'm drawing right now. Something that is precious to me, it's him. I draw him. I'm trying to put all my feelings in my drawing. I smile when I draw his lips and making him smiling too.
Few hours have passed. It's not really long actually. I'm done drawing within less than 5 hours. It's time to contact him and give this masterpiece. I grab my phone and then told him I'm done. He said he'll transfer the money once he see it. I exported my drawing into JPEG file and then send it to him. He says "What a masterpiece you have here! Oh God, I think my money will be well spent!". Well, he then agreed will transfer the money to my bank account.
I got a notification, it's from my bank account. I just ignore it and then rest my body on my bed. I stare at my desk near me, there's my drawing tablet there and desktop, laptop, notebook, and stuffs. Of course, there's Dazai's Nendoroid there. Followed by his action figure and poster and acrylic stand.
I sigh. I'm thinking when will I be able to meet him. If I can meet him, or accidentally meet him, I wonder what should I do or say? I let out a big sigh again, I'm pretty exhausted today even though I don't do much. Probably my mind is the one who's draining my energy.
