uncomfortable | braeden lemasters

six

i couldn't fight my smile watching the boys in the studio. watching them write, play, and construct songs was fascinating and admirable.

as braeden strummed his guitar, he glanced at me, catching my eyes lingering on him. with a smirk he nudged my knee with his foot and i laughed.

the band had announced the EP 'Spring' this morning and the reaction was incredible. their small following had grown significantly as a response to some of their singles.

along with the EP announcement, wallows released the song and video for 'pictures of girls'. i remember the first time braeden played the song for me and tearing up because i could tell that they'd found their sound. it was also a bop.

"val, tell us what you think of this." dylan called to me while tuning his guitar. lydia couldn't come today because she had obligations to her band, the regrettes; whom i loved. dylan was very reliant on her opinions when it came to songwriting and all that music shit. all of them were. without her here to help, the boys were asking for my opinions quite a lot.

i didn't mind. except for the fact i don't know shit about music besides i like listening to it.

"go for it." i nodded while curling up on the couch across from them.

i listened carefully as they began the song off of their new EP 'ground'. it was really good. when they finished, i commented on the parts i liked and they told me what they had changed.

we did the same for a couple of other songs and i couldn't tell if i was helping or not, but the boys seemed content with my answers.

especially braeden. he kept looking at me with that soft smile on his face after everything i said.

after a couple hours, they decided to take a break. dylan and cole left to go get food down the street while braeden decided to stay and work more.

"it's really good, braeden." i said from the couch while he sat across from me, guitar still in hand. "i'm really proud of you." i smiled when he looked up at me. "i'm not just saying that too. this is genuine music. i know how hard you worked on this."

braeden smiled at me, soft and happy, "come here." he mumbled, putting his guitar on the ground as i stood up from the couch and walked over towards him.

"you want me to sit on your lap?" i laughed and he rolled his eyes then patted his knee. "this is so stupid." i giggled as i literally sat down on his knee.

i shook my head at him while biting my lip. he grinned at me.

"i'm so lucky to have you," he spoke after a minute, resting his head in the crook of my neck.

i brushed my fingers through his hair and sighed, "nowhere near as lucky as i am to have you."

braeden picked up his head at that, bringing a hand to my face and cupping my cheek, "valerie, i want to sing you something."

my heart started pounded at the look in his eyes and i nodded. i moved off his knee and decided to sit down of the floor in front of him. he laughed and picked his guitar back up.

"just...don't say anything until i'm done. okay?" he said and i nodded.

braeden let out a breath through his lips before starting to strum.

"help me darling now i'm feeling lonely. help me darling now i feel afraid."

he sounded like an angel and i was fucking in love with him. his voice went straight through me and i was trying to ignore the intense effect the song was already having on me so i could focus more on the lyrics.

"but honey, i just wanna let the sun in. let the day just come and go."

i smiled up at him when i heard the songs title and he returned it.

i felt like i was in a dream while he sang to me. all i could think of was how i didn't deserve this. braeden was so good to me and i truly didn't deserve all his affection.

yet, he was here. singing for me. to me.

"and now i know, it's real. oh, yes i know, it's real. and now i know it's love. oh, it's love. oh, it's love. just let the sun in."

i was speechless as he sang those words to me. i didn't even know how to react.

he strummed the last chord of the song and waited for me to say something. all i could do was sit there, lips slightly parted.

"well?" braeden asked, a smile playing on his lips when he could tell i was literally at a loss for words.

"it's beautiful." i whispered.

"good. because i wrote it for you." he said, placing his guitar on the ground.

i gaped at him while braeden bit his lip to contain a smile. "you what?"

"i wrote it for you. i wrote it two years ago."

my heart swelled and now i really didn't know what to say because braeden loved me.

i stood up and launched myself into his arms and hugged him, "you wrote that two years ago?" i murmured into his neck.

"i think it was about, 6 months after we met." he said, hugging me back. his hugs were tight and warm and safe.

i sighed and then pulled away so i could look at him.
before i could speak another word, he grabbed the back of my neck and leaned forward, pressing his lips to mine.

i wasn't expecting it so i started laughing into the kiss and braeden groaned but began laughing too. "what?!" he tucked some hair behind my ear.

"i just wasn't expecting that." i said with a smile.

"well, maybe i should just leave." he said playfully, getting up and trying to leave the room.

"braeden, stop!" i laughed and tugged on his arm for him to stay.

he turned around with a smile and i grinned as we gazed at each other. we were so stupidly in love i hated it and loved it at the same time.

"i hate you." i said in one breath and he smirked at me.

"no, you don't." he said, kissing me again in one swift motion. i wrapped my arms around his neck, holding on tight while he pulled my hips towards his.

i pecked his lips one more time before pulling away and leaning my forehead against his. "thank you."

"for what?" he leaned back so he could look at me in the eyes.

"the song." i smiled at him and the blush on his cheeks made me laugh while he hid his face in my neck again.

i giggled as he pressed small kisses to my neck and trailing them all the way up to my nose.

when he looked at me, braedens eyes were filled with so much passion it scared me, but in the best way possible. like i didn't know what was going to happen between us next but i was ready to find out.

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boyf material :(
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