My Reflection

Ch.3 Preparing

For the rest of the day I can't seem to get that random guy or should I say Justin ,off my mind he's  just on repeat and I hate it because I can't seem to concentrate.It's weird really how you can see someone and start getting feelings for them ,but no I can't think that because It will never happen .I am mean I me ,Vanessa Fernandez ,the opposite of what anyone would want.You now what I actually don't care anymore ,I me,myself, and I .I shouldn't care about how people view or see me it's not like I am asking people to rate and criticize me .Although they'll eventually do it because that's how society is .Anyways who knows what will happen?But damn did that dude look like a fu**ing god! For real.

I'm in my last class and honestly I don't get any of my work done .Mostly because I spent my time daydreaming and wondering off,but also because it's Friday and I just want to leave this hellhole.So just as I'm thinking about how much I want to leave ,the bell rings .I jump up from my seat and head to leave .I step into the hallway and see the glorious doors that lead outside .I exit them as if I'm in a movie and walk down the stairs with pride and confidence because it's Friday and mood has just gone from I want to lay in bed all day  to I want to party all night ! I decide to put on my shades,take off my jacket ,and let my hair loose because the skies are clear blue and sun bright.

As I get closer to my car I hear someone call my name and I realize it's Cara.

"Vanessa!"she yells from a few steps behind and I turn around .

"Hey!"I say as she approaches to walk right beside me.She stares at me for a moment and it feels weird.
"What ?" I ask her wanting to know why she keeps staring at me as if she wants to say something about me.

"Nothing but I'm just realizing that black is actually a good color on you ,you look chill as if you want everybody to know You don't give a f**k,I like it ."She says smiling and I guess she's right because I don't really give a f**k about what people think or say .I never really have cared about what people say or think at least not since middle school because I guess I just got use to being me .I use to feel as If I needed everyone's approval but then realized wtf am I thinking?Its my life not theirs .Also since my mother passed away ,I've  got stronger mostly because I started boxing but also because of the pain that I had to deal and have managed to get.My thoughts are interrupted as Cara starts speaking again.

"So I was thinking we should hang out today,maybe even go to a party someone's having in downtown ??"she asks me as she keeps walking beside me looking at the scene in front of us .Everyone after school always comes to the parking lot to hangout ,all you see is people car racing,making out,and smoking.As I look at Cara ,I take into consideration her beauty .Her green eyes,long eyelashes ,brown hair and caramel skin.The way her hair cascades  down her back and how she walks with purpose and if you look clearly into her eyes it reminds you of the beauty of nature.

"Yeah,I'm down but I really need to eat because I'm starving ."I tell Cara as I approach my car and put my bag in the trunk.

"We should go to Sol's." She says and I agree .Sol's has now become our go to spot really.I get in my car and she heads to her car but as soon as I'm put to pull out of the parking lot she stops me .I wonder why and then turn around to see that her car isn't working.

"So could I get a ride ??" She asks after explaining me the situation.I reply yes ,of course .I mean why would I not, where going to same place together .

"It's seems like you have a personal chauffeur now ."I say laughing out loud .She shoves my shoulder acknowledging my words .We leave the parking lot and get on the main road .I always seem to enjoy the scenery in Atlanta .Looking at the city especially ,the buildings in sync with one another and how they shine when the light hits them .The trees and how they remind of the possibilities in the wilderness.

My view watching ends when we arrive at Sol's.I enter and the lady greets us and tells us to have a seat wherever we'd like .We take a seat at our usual spot near the window .I don't even bother to take a menu because I already know what I want and I'm also starving .I decide to go with my usual a burger with fries and a shake.Cara decides to order the same thing as me and then just keeps staring at me after .

"What??" I ask as I move my eyes from looking at the people sitting in the restaurant to her .

"Nothing.It always amazes me really ,your passion at ordering.",she says while laughing at the idea.

" So your not going to prom??" Cara asks.

"Nope .It's not my thing ,you know."I tell her as I look at the art on the wall

Then moments later our food arrives and we eat .

"So do you want to go to the party ??"  Cara asks me as we finish eating our food.I contemplate it for a moment but then decided ,you know what screw it !

"Yeah !" I tell her and she surprised at my answer.

"Wow that was easy ,I thought I would have to convince you ."she says we both laugh.

I finish my food and we pay our bill .As walk out door ,a group of guys walk in and I recognize one of them .It's the guy I bumped into in the hallway.We make eye contact for a second,I look away a and head out the door .

"Hey we should go get an outfit for the party!"she says,I agree with her and head to the mall.

We enter a store and suddenly I regret agreeing to come because Cara goes straight to the mini dress section.

"Look at this dress!"Cara exclaims with a wide smile on her face .She has a mini tight red sweetheart neckline dress.

"It's perfect for you !!",She says .Eyeing my entire body up and down.She hands me the dress ,signaling me to try it on .

"No! I don't think so."I say laughing ,handing her the dress back .She doesn't take it back and keeps on insisting.

"Fine!"I say giving in to her persuasion.
I get into one of the fitting rooms and try it on.I step outside and Cara is standing in amazement.

"Girl you look bomb af !!!Damn!!"she says while inspecting me .

"Ok chill."I say and laugh along to her words .

"Your taking this dress to the party ."she states while grabbing her bag .

"No I'm not !"I say and she laughs at me.

"You know what fuck it!Im taking it for you." She says heading out of the fitting rooms into the main store.

I change into my regular clothes and head into the main store .As I approach the store I can already see Cara with a bag in her hand .

"We should head to my house to change for the party ,we only have two hours left."Cara states as we head to the downtown parking lot .

We head to Cara's house to change and after Cara trying different looks on me and convinced me to wear the red dress ,we head to the party.

We arrive at a mansion that looks like it cost more than my entire life .We head up a hill and Cara parks in the driveway.We walk to the entrance and guys greets us both and lets us in .