walking down the hallways of my school makes me sick.
all the people here only care about the aritfical highschool bullshit. you know what im talking about. who will be prom queen? which cheerleader is the captain of the football team banging this week? who drives the nicest car? its all bullshit if you ask me. everybodies obsessed with having the most friends and going to the best parties, then theres me. the girl who sits in class and doesnt say a word. the girl who rides the bus to and from school because she cant pass her goddamn driving test. i could go on, but its kind of depressing so ill stop there.
now you're probably picturing me as this girl who has no friends and you probably think that nobody even knows that i go to the same school as them. well thats sadly not the case. im actually kind of popular, technically im not but i hang out with the popular crowd. the only thing is im not like them, i dont give a shit about whos dating who, im not gorgeous like they are, i hate going to the mall (which according to them is the only place that exsist in the entire world.) and i just dont fit in. its like im in their group of friends, but im not really in their group of friends. i only have a few real friends that im 100% comfortable with, and im so grateful for them.
im also grateful that its time for lunch, im starving. considering that i didnt eat breakfast.
"hey codi." i was greeted by avery. one of the popular girls im kinda friends with.
"hey aves." i responded. i wasnt really sure how to respond...im terrible at keeping conversations going. i feel like i shouldve said something else... maybe "hey aves, i like your shirt." yeah, that wouldve been better. im just so awkward, im constantly afraid to say the wrong thing around them. i have my moments though, sometimes i forget about my worries and everything just comes out naturally and im fine. thats when i really connect with these people. but most of the time when i say something i spend hours obsessing over what i said because i feel like i said the wrong thing. even though they probably dont even notice.
my friend grace walked up behind me and tapped my shoulder. i silently thanked her, shes one of the only people im comfortable with.
"hey stranger, i havent seen you at all today, where have you been?" she asked with a huge smile. grace is absoloutely beautiful, she has long blonde hair, she has perfect teeth, she just had a perfect face. along with that, she has an amazing personality, she is the sweetest and nicest person ive ever met. shes everything im not.
"oh um, i dont know. i didnt skip any classes." i shrugged. grace and i have every class together, i dont know how she didnt see me.
"oh, well then im just blind." she said, and i laughed. we continued walking down the hall to the lunch room, making small talk and laughing. i didnt even notice that avery walked ahead, racing to the cafeteria in order to get the precious "popular table".
once we finally reached the cafeteria, grace and i sat down in our usual spots, not even greeting the other people. i let out a breathe of air, glancing around the cafeteria. i saw something out of the corner of my eye that caught my attention, a bright red head. not a ginger, a red head.
"woah, whos that?" i asked grace, pointing in the direction of the strawberry.
"oh, thats the new kid, i think his name is mitchell or something." she answered.
hes in our first and third period. jesus codi, do you pay any attention?" she said jokingly.
"not really." i laughed.
i glanced behind me again, taking another look at the bottle red head. he just happened to turn around and look at me at the same time, our eyes meeting. i smiled and waved, trying to be friendly. the friendliness was not returned.
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omfg this sucks. this is the first fanfiction ive written in a long time so idk im nervous about this.
im sorry about the lack of apostrophes, my computer doesnt automatically correct them and im to lazy to go back and fix them lol.
so yeah basically this is a mikey fanfiction and i dont even know where this is going yet but hopefully this isnt completely terrible and that it makes at least a little sense.
thanks for reading :)
