Sweet Joanna

Chapter Fourteen

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Chapter Fourteen

I ran away, leaving Evo behind me not caring if he'd chase me or just leave me be. My heart was pounding so hard it almost flew out of my chest while I ran on full speed passing by bedazzled pedestrians.

What happened back there was a moment of weakness, I shut her up because I couldn't take it anymore. April's words drilling through my skull planting itself inside my brain.

The past itself isn't really yet my past as I just truly hid it deep, deep, deep inside me not wanting to let got if either any part of what happened then. Even if that memory hurt me so much or made me happy because a memory wouldn't be one if it weren't complete.

Papa. I just wanted to see my father, wanting to feel his warm huge hugs, hearing his throaty laugh and the head ruffles.

I just wish life didn't have to be so complicated. I only wish to get my parents back, my old life back, everything back.

If it weren't for those stupid criminals who framed my father into being held as a prisoner none if this would've happened.

So you regret having me as your master, you regret having me in this Vampire experience. My eyes widened turning around to see Evo at the other side of the street a flash of hurt passed his emotions. I was frozen in my spot not knowing what to say, I wanted to tell him that what I though about and wished wasn't true but I couldn't because I really did not want to have a life like this even though I have a caring bi-polar master. But having this experience with Evo was probably the baddest thing I've experienced in my whole life.

I wanted to block him out of my mind but I wanted him to read my thoughts as we both stared deeply at each other's gazes. I frowned at him and said, Sorry.

An apology is not enough to describe what I wanted to tell him sorry for. I know that hurt him big time since after these past few weeks we've really grown a bond not any bi-polar to bi-polar Vampire should have.

Evo shook his head from the other side of the street actually sending his disappointment through the air like an arrow that pierced through my heart.

And I didn't want his disappointment, his rejection but even though I had a thick wall built around my heart, my conscience and he still affected like no other person.

I need some time, I sent through mind link even though my heart was already crashing into pieces. My emotions scattered in all over the continent. I just needed time, I needed to think things through. I need to build my wall again.

But even though he was clearly disappointed I know this man had hope for me, a helpless puny little missing girl that he turned into a Vampire. And within a second he was already in front of me too fast for people to even notice his supernatural ability.

His eyes softened as he saw my face up close, his eyes softened as he saw through all emotions evident in my eyes. Evo lifted his hand to my cheek and I felt like crashing down the pavement and weeping my heart out.

Smooth circle patterns, he drew at the little gap he was holding in my cheeks comforting me. Warmth spread through me and I observed this person, this person that has truly cared for me nothing like my mother or my father has. This guy that changed me to what I never wanted to be, but through all of it he's let me grasp his hand all the way even though we're not even near the end, hell we haven't even reached the middle but it's been weeks, months.

And Evo's still here.

And slowly but surely his thumb crawled a little higher on my cheek and wiped what seemed to be a lone tear that has streamed down my cheek, his gesture not only made me cry but put the way I thought of him to a higher level.

"I was weak," I told him my voice affected by my tears. I was weak, I shown April that she was the winner that even though I've changed I still can't fight her. I was weak, I am weak and I still haven't let go of the real me.

Suddenly his thumb was on my lips silencing my mind rant about how weak and small I am. "You're not weak, Joanna. A real weak person is the one who doesn't want anyone to see the real them because if they did show it to everyone they would just break down and their facade that they've worked for will be gone." His voice whispering words to my ear in the middle of the side walk, people passing by giving us looks of disgust but I didn't care because I was in my moment of weakness. A moment where I just wish to vomit all my hidden burden.

"But that was a moment of vulnerability and it embarrassed you with me not knowing how to fight back to a mere human like her. She should be the puny one not me!" I yelled and Evo caged me in his arms stopping me from having a huge tantrum.

One thing why I ran was because I was embarrassed for Evo, for having a little sympathetic Newborn like me. For once I didn't act like an Enamortal, I was embarrassed because I acted like a lion that wanted to be eaten by a rabbit. And it shouldn't be that way because the lion should have the upper hand but no the rabbit had it and I was so humiliated I just fled the place.

Should I have really lived? Did I deserve this chance that was given to me or was other people more well deserved than me... I felt like I was such a lost cause.

I shut my eyes tightly trying my best to squirm in Evo's hold wanting to get out of his arms, his warm arms that calmed me, soothed me. "I felt more worse than a retarded person Evo. I felt like power was being drained from me and I didn't like that feeling Evo. It's like I had no arms and legs." I whispered while resting my forehead on his chest.

His chest clad in his black sweater, heart that seemed to be beating very fast and his arms resting on my shoulders. When-when did this happen? How come suddenly we were in each other's arms?

That's when it happened...

Pain suddenly struck my groin and my body collapsed to the ground my face contorting into pain and in a second I was in my father's cell.

[Evo's Point Of View]

She dropped to the ground, Joanna's face turning red and contorting into pain as if she was being hurt. People started looking and I raised my hand as if telling them everything's all right, no need to worry.

My conscience ached for her, pitied her because I know exactly what was happening and it was all my fault.

It had to happen at some point but they said in order for them to make it happen they wanted he to watch, and stamp every second she'll be seeing. A real nightmare which she'll surely hate me for.

Lowering my body to the ground I carried her to the back alley before she even attracts attention where no one will see her, and her glowing red eyes. And soon as we were there I entered a van that has been parked there for a reason.

Joanna's body was stiff like a dead person's body and as soon as I sat her down I couldn't contain the guilt that was weighing my shoulder, my heart, my soulless body. Hell was Joanna right about guilt and it was taking a huge toll on me right now.

I sat adjacent to her staring at her with an emotion I'm so foreign with. This was the first time she wandered where tears were streaming down her face meaning she was internally hurting, emotionally breaking because of me.

I couldn't stand watching her, watching her watch her father die...

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