14: Feelings

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It was my birthday today but I couldn't even mention it at school because I'm Ahn Yujin not Im Jiyeon when I get there.

Celebrating my birthday at my house with Jimin, first thing in the morning, killed some time so when both of us arrive at school, we can both eat the chocolate.

We were just normally walking to school when I noticed Jimin looked down so I said, "Oy, Jimin, what's wrong with ya?"

I said this trying to don a thick Scottish accent to make him laugh but he stayed glum so I stood in front of him which made him stop walking and he looked at me with a cold face.

"Jimin? Are you okay?", I asked and he just looked me dead in the face and no words came out of his mouth.

I hugged him but he didn't hug back so I pulled away and looked at him and asked, "Are you okay? Why aren't you talking? You seemed fine a while ago?"

He just looked at me with no expression and said, "I'm gonna go ahead, I have places to be."

He started walking away making me say, "Yah Jimin, we always walk to school together, it's not 2J without you."

"Then maybe you should get used to it, you can be 2J with Jungkook cause his name starts with a J too", he said and he just walked away.

What's wrong with him? I felt my heart tighten at his coldness and I went to school alone, for the first time.

I ate the chocolate before I entered school grounds seeing that I was already late.
I then saw Jimin walk in the school ahead of me and I thought maybe his head was aching.

I was running to him wanting to surprise him with a back hug but then Naeun got there first and hugged him from the back.

He smiled genuinely at her and my heart tightened again.
Why is he doing this to me?

I watched as he gave her a piggyback ride into the school. I'm supposed to be the one getting that.

I heard their chuckles and I swear my heart felt like dying at that point.
Why was he doing this to me.
What did I do wrong.

I walked into the school feeling like absolute crap and I was walking slowly to my classroom when I felt a hand on my shoulder.

I felt a slight glimmer of hope, thinking it was Jimin but when I turned around I saw Jungkook and my slight smile at that moment faded.

He looked at me weird and said, "Yujin? Are you okay? You look like a zombie? Is something wrong?"

"No, I'm just a little tired, I slept a little late", I said trying to convince him I was okay.

He just nodded and said, "Let's go to class."

I nodded faking a smile and we started walking to the classroom and once I got in I waved hello to Jimin but her just ignored me so I ended up just walking to my seat and Jungkook just looking at me worried.

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It pained me to see Jiyeon feel hurt when I ignored her greeting.
It took every inch of my self-restraint to stop me from hugging her when we were walking to school and now I just felt even more conflicted.

But I know what I was doing. I felt that if I kept my distance from her then maybe I'll forget my feelings about her and we can go back to normal.

I don't want to ruin our friendship because of my stupid feelings because I know that she likes Jungkook.

I watched Jiyeon quietly and saw how Jungkook was comforting her.
I knew she was suffering as much as I did.
I've never walked to school without her and it felt so weird to be back hugged by Naeun and not her.

I sighed as the teacher came in knowing this wasn't going to be a great day at all.

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I tried to forget about how Jimin was so cold to me today but I couldn't.
It just wasn't the same.

I would usually look back at him at this time and receive a wink from him if Jungkook was talking to me but today was different.

He was taking down notes as the teacher wrote things on the board.

He wasn't acting like himself and what's worse was that he wasn't talking to me.

I don't know what I did wrong.

I'm scared because I don't want him to be away from me because I hate to admit it sometimes but I've felt things.

I want him to be more than just my best friend because I liked him but here I am trying to like Jungkook to forget my feelings about him.

That's because he likes Naeun and I don't want our friendship to be ruined because of my stupid feelings.

I looked back at Jimin again and he wasn't even bothering to notice me.

It made my heart break seeing him like that. Maybe it's because he found out that I like him and he became weirded out about it.

I directed my attention to the teacher and ignored Jungkook who was trying to cheer me up.

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The morning passed so quickly and now it was lunchtime. My mood cheered up a bit because Jungkook kept on making stupid jokes.

On the way to lunch I saw Jimin near the cafeteria entrance but before I could approach him, Jungkook stopped me and said, "I know this is a little bit early but I'm sure this will cheer you up."

I looked over his shoulder to see Jimin and I saw that he stopped as if curious if what Jungkook was going to say.

I looked at Jungkook again and he said, "Be my girlfriend."

"What?", I said not knowing what to say.

"I want you to be my girlfriend Yujin", he said still intoxicated by my fake self.

I looked over at Jimin and saw that he just shook his head and laughed.

It hurt my heart again. Wanting to relieve the pain, I looked at Jungkook and said, "Yes."

He hugged me and I hugged him back and I noticed from the angle I was in, I saw that Jimin and Naeun were having a fun chat and next thing I knew, he kissed her.

Maybe he went away from me because he doesn't like me but he found out that I did.

Why are you doing this to me Park Jimin.

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