oh mY umm... so liek i kinda forgot about this book.. buT here's a one shot i had in mind for a while so i hope u like it uwuwu. also this inspired by a show; shameless the relationship between lip & karen ^_^
tw: angst & heartbreak
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heavy breathing and groans filled the dim lit basement. mattress squeaking with every slow thrust that joji had made, sent waves of pleasure and guilt down y/n back.
y/n and joji were best friends, they met each other through youtube, and blossomed a very close bond which lead to lust in both.
they proclaimed that they were friends to the rest of the cancer crew but deep down, they both had feelings for each other.
friends with benefits you could call it. except that when they had sex, it felt more loving the way they kissed and gave each other love bites made it confusing where they stood on the "just friends" spectrum.
blamed it on lust.
usually when they were in the moment and were having sex it was lustful and hungry the way the held each other.
as they were reaching their climax joji gave more affection to y/n kissing her neck, shoulders, stomach.
silent tears fall from her eyes with each thrust joji gave.
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y/n did not know where her feelings lied with joji, she loved him to the point where it hurt. but their relationship was wrong.
she couldn't be in a healthy relationship with him. y/n had past relationships that were horrible and traumatized her.
she couldn't do that to joji.
but she was afraid of hurting. hurting her self, and joji
besides, joji only wanted sex in their "friends with benefits" relationship... or so y/n thought.
she felt guilty about these feelings. she needed to end this, it was getting out of control. she was going to put this to a stop.
joji hungrily kissed on her shoulders blades and down her chest "i..love you" he spoke in between smooches.
she whimpered. there was no way of ending this without breaking joji's heart.
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as they both came down from their climax. y/n was already at the end of the bed facing away from joji, strapping her bra back on.
joji reached over and pecked her back laugher fell from joji's mouth "i've missed you, i don't see you that much anymore"
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"been busy." y/n spoke getting up ignoring the affection
''oh'' he sorta laughed, a bit confused
there was a bit of silence before
"i think we should stop seeing each other."
"we should just be friends, it's for the best."
"why?" joji was kind of shocked, still in the moment of after-sex of giddiness.
"come on... don't make this hard for me." y/n pulled her jeans on
joji got up realizing what he had said "was this because i said i loved you..'cause i don't!"
"it was just a middle of sex sort of thing"
y/n wasn't having it and he could tell. joji clasped his hands on both sides of her face.
"listen.. honest!" "i don't love you.."
y/n sniffed, tears welling in her eyes this was too much, her heart couldn't take this.
struggling in joji's hands, he forcefully kissed her lips in attempt to calm her down.
in truth joji had fallen in love with her. he loved everything about her. her smile, laugh, the way she always made him feel loved. he was planning on making it official too.
she pushed him away and ran for the stairs. he chased her, but she got away too quickly.
there he stood at the bottom of the stairs.
heartbroken.
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a/n: this is so short and angsty omfg but i rushed the fuck out of this. i hope you like it tho 😳
