The dirt on jewel

Chapter 12

I had clutched his collar and had banged him against the wall. He seemed to have stopped breathing,his face was blue and panic-stricken,his dark brown eyes looked in horror and amazement at the shabby figure of myself.

I was perspiring,yelling and spitting on his face. My face no doubt must have been grotesque,repugnant and detestable. The filth that had been hidden for awhile by the light and glimmer had not taken out the worst in me. So loathsome and lurid,so despicable,this was the face which had gone through so many phases of life that no make up could hide the scars of this grimace appearance.

"What do you think.." But I stopped right in the middle of cursing him to look back at the terror stricken face of Rae.

I loosened the grip on his collars and tried to move back from him but he pulled me back and said looking utterly bewildered :

"What,are you done? A few more punches would leave a better scar,don't you think?

"What are you doing?" I said flabbergasted.

"What is happening here?" Rae said in

"Nothing that concerns you!" He said while pushing me aside.

"Nothing!" I said.

Rae was definitely taken aback but I left ignoring her obvious shock and concern.

Today it was raining really hard. I didn't have an umbrella and neither could I afford a bus ticket forget a cab.

"I ain't a princess and no prince will come to rescue. I can't even drink because I am saving every penny I can,I can't even be a dreamer because dreams are costly." I was saying to myself when somebody called me from the back.

"What are friends for?" Leya said with her arms open in front of her and Edward standing next to her.

I ran into her arms and cried my heart out while Edward stood patting my back.

The most cold day may have warmth,warmth in someone's arm,warmth in words of your beloved,little just little feeling of importance and you are the Sultan.

"May I join you?" A sweet yet scared voice called out.

I looked up with my drenched eyes looking in Rae's innocent and beautiful ones.

"Of course you can!" Edward said flatteringly.

Rae laughed bashfully and then joined us,giving me a little hug. It was like celebrating the Christmas night with your best friends. A moment of infinity,a moment of oblivion,entering a world of beauty,love,of being free.

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I woke up from a beautiful dream,one that made me smile after a long time. Words were never enough to express myself,however yesterday was special,special to me.

"Ayana!"

"What?" I called back to Juan.

"Can you come early today?" He asked while put on his coat and for a minute even I was dazing at his reflection on the mirror.

"Well......ummm..I don't know!" I said.

"Can you try to come early at least?" He said in his modulated voice.

"Fine,I will try but I am not confirming." I said while heading towards the door.

"Ok!" He said and winked at me which left me frozen at my place until he himself asked if I was leaving or not.

He is my brother,but his life is scar free,his face so much brighter,I wonder why he never had a girlfriend.

MJ is a bit monotonous or probably it's just my experience that has left me this way. Boring,uninterested and mostly ordinary,that's my life,which nobody will know of because I won't share this troublesome life with anyone.