K-pop yaoi smut/fluffs/angst *discontinued*

Nct chenle x jeno (happier)

Chenle didn't want to let him go but he knew that he had too for the both of them, they weren't happy together, he relized that no matter how much it hurt he knew he had to do it, jeno may not relize it at the moment but it will help both of them, chenle will give him a chance to be happier even if it's at the cost of his own

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"What do you mean" jeno said his eyes watering not letting go of chenle's jacket

"Jeno I'm breaking up with you" chenle said tears running down his face not daring to look into jeno's eyes

"B-but why......i though we were perfect" jeno barely managed to get out crying more and more as the time went

"Please jeno understand this is for the best, I don't want to do this but we'll never be happy in this relationship if it keeps going like this" chenle cried out for the first time today he looked into jeno's eyes

Jeno couldn't believe it he thought they were fine but chenle didn't agree with it but jeno didn't know the full story

"Ok.....thank you chenle for all the moments we had together" jeno said and gave chenle one last hug before running away from the very tree they first met

"I'm so sorry jeno" chenle fell to his knees and whispered out but he knew no one would hear him

Chenle hated himself so much, he didn't deserve jeno, chenle dealt with so much doubt and frustration, he knew because of him jeno would never be happy

There were many reasons for their breakup, jeno was already so close to jaemin and Renjun much happier than he was with him, jeno didn't know how to put in effort in a relationship it always looked like they were friends, chenle suffered from so much depression he didn't want jeno to know, and chenle knew if they kept this relationship it would only ruin them

Chenle got up from the ground and dragged himself back to his apartment, chenle had a hard life, his parents left him 2 years back for being gay and he had no know relatives, he was left all alone

He looked at the pictures on the wall they were all of him and jeno from all their dates he couldn't help but want to cry it hurt, so much

He took them off the wall and put them into an empty box crying more and more after looking at each picture and remembering all the good times they've had

He couldn't look at them anymore, he ran to his bedroom and fell onto the bed all his tears coming out his wailing cries could be heard from outside his doors his heart hurt so much

He was hurting so much but he didn't regret it, he knew jeno would be happier without him but it hurt, it hurt more than any other pain he has ever felt, his first love is gone

All the good times suddenly flashed through his eyes, he remembered every single moment they've ever had from all the dates they had all the way to all the argument

Those were the best times for him any moment with jeno was a great moment but as he looks back he also saw jeno with Jaemin and Renjun smiling like there were no other people around, that's when he realized maybe he had to let go

He didn't want to but sometimes if you love someone so much the best thing to do is let them go no matter how much pain it causes, neither one of you would have been happy if it kept going

Chenle smiled at the though of jeno finally being happy even if it wasn't with him, he was ok with that as long as he was happy but it wouldn't stop the pain he felt

His heart felt like someone was trying to rip it right out of him and no matter how much he tried it just wouldn't stop, he didn't know a breakup would hurt this much

He heard his phone ringing and saw that jisung was calling him so he went to pick it up

"Chenle are you ok" Jisung said his voice was soft

Jisung was the first person chenle could confide in he told him what he was gonna do, it didn't matter if all the others were pissed at him as long as the one person he could trust knew the whole story

"N-no I'm not but......i will be soon I promise" chenle said tears still streaming down his face as he spoke but he was good at hiding that fact from jisung

"Ok chenle but please I'll be here for you ok" Jisung said trying his best to comfort his best friend

"I know jisung" chenle said and hung up his phone straight after he didn't think he would last any longer without breaking down

He didn't feel like himself it was different, jeno was his first love he would never forget him but now he was alone he though for a second, could he take back everything he said

The answer was no he knew he had to do it for the both of them, he would let jeno move on no matter how much it hurt his heart to think about jeno with another person, it was for the best

As long as jeno was happy, he could suffer the pain he felt in his heart

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Hey kittens this chapter is for me to express how I feel right now this happened to me today and instead of breaking down like I want to do i wrote this instead to express my feelings, I let go of my first love today and yeah I'm young but he is my best friend i loved him more than anything, we broke up a year ago for similar reason I wrote for this story and I didn't want to but I knew it was for the best, today I finally let him go, he's dating someone now after months of everyone telling us we should date again it's not gonna happen, it really hurts, we both still liked each other but he's finally moved on, I did break down when I first heard who he was dating but I think it's helped me realize it's time to move on so I'm just gonna try my best to be happy for him even if it does hurt a bit

~elena