My life/rant book

Hey

Hey guys, sorry for ranting out on the last chapter. I know it was out of line but I won't take it back because that is what I truly think. Anyways, I've been having struggles about who I am and who I should be. Struggling with my identity.

I feel dragged by my past. I just, I just feel like my friends painted me as some kind of person who's gonna come at the world with all she's got. I felt like that. Key word: felt.
I don't want for people to be disappointed that I don't want to be the person who's a lawyer and as selfish as it seems, I just want to live my life.

I want to live in Tokyo, have awesome friends who know anime, go to cool looking cafes, become a famous youtuber and just, I dunno, it seems all selfish but it seems so perfect. Also go to big concerts and learn Japanese. Most amazing life ever.

There is just so many doubts, I used to be the person who was kind, caring and honest. I knew what I wanted in life and I knew that I would do it the hard way. I knew that I wanted to help people and make them happy because I hated when people were sad. Now... because of family problems, I don't know much.

I don't know who I want to be truly, I don't know what purpose in life I have to fulfill, and frankly, times like these I realize how naive and stupid I was. I realize that the past me will always be more considerate than the me now.

Oh well, before I make the mood of this chapter any gloomier if possible. Goodbye and hope you have a good day/night. :D (?)