Take Me With You (Donny X Kisses)

1st of May

I want to hug her so tight the moment I saw her by my window but all I did was smile. I couldn't contain my happiness.

I was a bit teary-eyed when she talked to me.

"Take me with you." She said. I didn't know that she could be this submissive.

We sneaked out of the hospital and found our exit at the back fence; we walked past the old playground 'till we reached the road.

"I'll take you for a walk." I uttered as
I looked at my phone. It displayed the time: 8:17 pm.

"Don't worry, we'll be back kaagad."

I held her cold hand; nope the word cold is an understatement. I held her freezing hand and put it inside the pocket of my jacket. We started walking, slow-paced.

Streetlight after streetlight, I never thought it could be this romantic.

There were no cars. It was just us and the trees on both sides plus the crickets.

"Donny, you'll meet my parents soon." She said.

"Just be polite okay? Don't be mad at them. The first thing I want you to do is to hug mom and dad. They loved hugs."

I want to throw a lot of questions at her but my heart is so full right now. Her presence is enough.

"Donny, this day is extra-special."

"Why?"

"Because, I got a chance to see you and... it's my birthday!"

"Really?" F*ck I didn't even know that today is a special day. So unprepared.

"Yup! So, where's my gift?'

"Here, beside you." I answered coupled with a laugh.

"Baliw." She jokingly hit my arm.

"Kisses, happy birthday." We stopped for a while. I cupped her chin and was about to kiss her but I stayed still midway. I was too shy. To be honest, I haven't kissed anyone in my entire life.

Our eyes, glued at each other. She tiptoed and covered my eyes with her free hand and then it happened abruptly. I felt her soft lips on mine. It was just a peck but it felt endless.

"That was my first, lucky guy." She teases and then we resumed walking.

I was biting my lower lip to stop myself from smiling because that was my first too.

The silence was comforting, it wasn't awkward at all.

After minutes of walking I felt pain in my chest, I tried my best to look okay.

"Let's take a rest muna." I said when I finally saw a waiting shed on the side. We went there and I sat for a moment.
I low-key rubbed my chest as it was pounding too fast.

"Donny, are you okay?" She asked.

I flashed a smile and nodded repeatedly. The truth is, I'm having a hard time breathing. F*ck.

Kisses sat beside me. Her head, on my shoulder. There were no stars unlike the other night and then all of a sudden, liquids were dropping from above.

"IT'S RAINING!!!" Her voice was full of excitement. She removed her hand out of my pocket and she started spinning in the middle of the road.

I did some breathing exercises; soon enough, I managed to compose myself.

"Kisses!" I shouted but she was so invested in the rain. She was dancing like a kid.

I took a video of her using my phone. I placed it inside my pocket when I saw her walked near me.

"Donny," She said, grabbing my left arm. She pulled me out of the shed. She succeeded.

We're both soaking wet as we played under the falling rain. For a moment, we forgot about the world and how crappy that is. We forgot about the hospital and anything related to it.

"I just want to be alive!" She exclaimed while swinging her arms.

She looked perfect under the monochromatic night sky.

"It feels good to be with you." I mumbled under my breath.

"Ano?"

"Weh? Bingi-bingihan. Narinig mo naman eh."

The rain continued pouring and we're enjoying every drop of it. And then, there's the pain in my chest again.

"I'm so happy." Kisses held my hand and then she starts spinning, slowly. The yellow lights made her skin glow, almost luminous.

"Donny," She halted. Her eyes fixed on mine. She guided my hands on both sides of her cheeks. I lowered my face 'till our foreheads bumped. So little distance between us. I could hear her breathe.

"I'm sorry." She closed her eyes, I closed mine.

"SSssshh." The rain poured heavily. I want to cheer her up but the pain intensified.

"I like you a lot." I can tell that she's crying just by the tone of her voice.

"And losing you feels like dying all over again. I want nothing but the best for you." She said.

I clenched my teeth as I tried to suppress the on-going havoc in my chest. F*ck. A tear fell.

She started singing.

You are the one who makes me happy
When everything else turns to grey

I'm trying my best to normalize my breathing.
Breathe in. Breathe out.

Yours is the voice that wakes me mornings
And sends me out into the day

The throbbing of my heart speeds up.
F*ck this odd squeezing sensation in my chest.

You are the crowd that sits quiet
Listening to me
And all the mad sense that I make

I'm having a hard time breathing but somehow her voice sounded like a lullaby, humming me to sleep.

You are one of the few things worth remembering
And since it's all true
How could anyone mean more to me than you

I can't breathe...

Significant memories started playing in my head. Me, when I was little. Me, when I was with my family. Me, with friends. Me, when I had my first acting award. Everything.

I tried to open my eyes. I want to have a glimpse of my one last happy moment. I don't know if it was my mind playing tricks on me but Kisses seemed translucent. I can literally see through her. She was slowly fading....till I couldn't touch her.

The last thing I knew, my spine hit the cold hard pavement then everything went black.