i slam my front door shut, tears still threatening to fall down my cheeks. i will not let this get to me like this, i say to myself.
that is until my blurry eyes look up and see taehyung. stood in front of me. i rub my wet eyes to clear my vision, thinking i must've gone crazy. but the figure remains there, looking at me with gentle eyes.
i then also remember not locking my front door before i left.
without saying anything, he walks towards me and wraps his arms around me. i weakly return the embrace and we stay there for a long time, the only words being spoken coming from taehyung when i try to pull away; "can we just stay like this? please?" i nodded and resumed my position in his hold.
eventually though, we let go and sit on my couch, facing each other. he looks at me and smiles.
"you went to the special place, didn't you?"
i laugh a little and nod.
"i went the first week, but you weren't there so i didn't go again. but today i had such a strong urge to go. since you weren't there the first time, i knew the second most likely place you'd be is your house, so i came here and saw the door was unlocked. i knew exactly where you had gone straight away but decided to wait. i didn't want to ruin the place for you any further, i guess." he says.
i nod.
"i had the strong urge to go too. i had such a gut feeling you'd be there, turns out you were here all along." i say whilst smiling a little.
taehyung sighs.
"this isn't going to work, is it? especially with school coming up and everything.." he pauses and thinks, "i mean i could transfer if you want. we'd be away from each other and it would be easy, right?"
my heart drops. this isn't what i wanted to hear whatsoever. it seems that he can see it on my face as his eyes dim a little.
"but i don't want to do that." he adds quickly, the brightness returning.
"it's only been three weeks and i miss you like hell. it's kind of ridiculous to be honest. but these weeks have proven that trying to avoid each other just makes it so much worse."
i nod in agreement.
"the only way i will abide by is a way that involves us staying as we were, maybe even closer. i don't think i could live with any other way."
"me too," i say quietly, "we could just stay low key, right? don't let the family find out. to them, we don't even know each other's existence."
he smiles at me, giving me that deep look again.
"exactly. lowkey it is. i am happy with that compromise." he says even softer than me, and i notice how we're gradually getting closer. we sit and smile, his chocolate brown eyes seeming to melt into my heart.
something flashes behind those eyes and something hits me too.
i like taehyung. like, i like like taehyung.
how have i been so blind to myself? weren't the signs obvious? it's not normal for someone to miss someone so deeply in a relatively short period of time.
my realisation seems to lift my spirits and i smile wider, proudly admiring the face looking back at me. he gently takes my hand and i freeze at his sudden gesture.
"i also haven't been completely honest with you.. there's something else i need to tell you." he says, his smile growing with his words.
i raise my eyebrows at him.
"well.. how do i put it.." he looks around the room and chuckles. my eyes follow his face intently, and soon notice how it's getting very close to mine.
and before i have time to realise, we're kissing. i kiss him back softly and smiles grow on our lips. my heart rate goes crazy inside of my chest, feeling as if it's about to burst at any second. luckily for my pulse though, we pull away and look at each other, giddy smiles lighting up our faces.
"i guess that's the only way i can put it." he says laughing. i laugh too.
"i guess that's the only way i can answer." i say before squeezing our interlocked hands.
my body seems to be filled with bliss. it will be okay. maybe it's not so bad after all.
however as i look just past taehyung, out of the window behind him, i can feel the colour drain from my face. he notices and turns around, and as he does, both of our eyes land on my father, getting out of his car and making his way to the front door.
