Miss You 3,000

Morgan

The clock rings in my ears with each tick. 3:03. School gets out at 3:15

Finally the bell rings and i hurry to my locker, not before being shoved to the side a few times. But i don't even notice

my mind has drifted too far for me to be apart of the world around me anymore. Nothing really matters

Ned runs up behind me ecstatic as usual

"Peter! Guess what i just got? The Lego Millennium Falcon! Wanna build it today?"

"Sorry Ned i need to go" i close my locker and start to walk away

"Go where?"

"I'm meeting someone" I silently wipe a tear onto my sleeve

"Who? Peter what's up with you, what aren't you telling me?"

I slip into the brick alley, Ned following close behind as I pull me shirt off, revealing my suit underneath

And without another word, I release my webs and swing away, leaving Ned in the alley staring at me

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I slip my shirt back over my suit as the grass and leaves crunch beneath my feet

Out of all the things i've faced, this just might be the hardest. I knock on the front door and hear hurried footsteps

The door creaks open and a familiar face greets me with a sorrowful smile

"Hi Peter" she chokes out, i smile as best I can, forcing tears back into my eyes

I walk and set my backpack on the floor with a clunk. Then a young girl with silky brown hair and deep brown eyes, walks slowly to her mother, brushing the hair from her face

I kneel down to her level and take a deep breath

"Im Peter" the little girl clutches her stuffed rabbit closer and meekly rocks back and forth

"Im Morgan" she whispers

"You look just like him..."

"Who? Daddy? Happy says that to me"

"Yeah, your dad" i sink closer to the wooden floor and begin to lose the fight with my emotions

Morgan's eyes narrow worriedly and she looks to her mother. Pepper moves closer to me

"Peter-" i quickly get up

"Im fine, it was nice to meet you Morgan" I sling my backpack over my shoulder and start for the door

Pepper puts her hand on my shoulder

"Please stay, i know it hurts Peter, we understand... its okay to be upset" my eyes cloud with tears

"I should really get back to Aunt May, but i'll come back tomorrow after school" Pepper nods and grabs Morgan's hand

"You shouldn't have to try and swing all of the way here, Happy can pick you up tomorrow"

"thanks"

I close the door and start to swing back towards the city

The air in my face, it's like flying. My heart burns. Why did it have to be him? why?

Morgan needs him, Pepper needs him... i need him

As soon as i walked into their house, i saw a picture of the 2 of us, the golden fram resting on their windowsill. I never thought he really cared about me

Pepper said that after i was gone, he was more depressed, he blamed himself. He spent many long nights staring at that photograph

My hand slips and i fall to the ground. I lay here frozen as the earth moves around me. The leaves stir and i turn to my right to see a pitch black car pulling up

The door flings open and Happy runs to me

"Peter? Are you okay?!" i steady myself and begin to stand up

"Yeah im- fine"

"Get in, i'll bring you home" i grab my side and try to find my backpack

"Thanks, Happy, but im fine"

"Peter, get in the car" he picks up my backpack and tosses it in the back, so i decide to climb in after it

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Once we pull up to my apartment, i open the door

"Peter, I miss him too. He saved the world. The universe even. He knew what he was doing, he would have done it 100 times over if he knew it would bring you back. He loved you" i can't look at him

I turn my head and quickly get out of the car, dodging his gaze

As soon as i open the front door, Aunt May floods me with questions

"Peter, where were you? What happened? You're covered in dirt... what happened to your face?" she touches a cut that has swelled on my cheek

"I fell when i was swinging, its fine" i say coldly, she turns my head towards her

"Peter, whats going on with you?"

"I... met his daughter today" she looks confused

"Whos daughter?" i wince and pull away. Realization registers in her eyes and she steps back

"Whats her name?"
"Morgan"
"Peter, it's okay to miss him"

"Everyone keeps telling me that"

"Its true. Look, think of this as an opportunity" i stare at her in anger

"Okay not opportunity, but you lost your parents at her age, you can help her. I know he never said this or even made it apparent to you, but it was very clear to me that he thought of you as his son"

I can't stand here any longer, i toss my backpack on the chair and close my door

Tears begin to pour out and my head hits the wall. I feel like part of me is missing, like i'll never be able to fill the hole he left

I fish my mask out of my backpack and pull it on

"Karen, play 'Tony Stark last message'" i watch him walk around the room, talking to me

Its as if he were really here, i watch this 3D projection everyday. Wishing it was real. Never wanting it to end

A loud buzzing catches me off guard and i fall off my bed 'incoming call; Mr Rhodey' i sit up and debate whether or not to answer it

Finally i accept and listen to him speak

"Hey Kid" i sit here silently

How can i talk to him? I can't do it without losing myself

Finally he continues the conversation

"Pepper told me to check on you..."

"Im fine, Sir"

"We all miss him, you're not alone" i can hear his voice shake as he finally ends the conversation and hangs up

I curl up on my bed and fall asleep to another one of Tony's presentations

he's gonna start meeting with Morgan more in the next chapters. sorry im not updating this one a whole lot, its hard for me to write

i physically cant write it without being an emotional mess 😭😖✌

- spideyev