why? || j.k au

eleven.

you told me to meet you at the rooftop of the support group building at 11 pm.

i thought it was a weird spot but I went anyways.

you sat near there in a yellow bomber jacket, a white shirt, and light jeans

when you spotted me, the smile from the previous day plastered on your face.

we hugged and said our hellos, but I was still confused why you chose such an absurd spot for a date.

I leaned on your shoulder as we stared at the busy city.

It was so peaceful.

we sat like that for at least an hour.

that's when you told me why you were there.

I felt the color drain from my face.

I wasn't scared.

just surprised.

that's why you were so happy.

because you planned it all out.

you were finally going to be released from this world.

and I wasn't going to let you leave alone.

you told me that you knew what had to be done yesterday.

I wasn't going to talk u out of it, because you wouldn't listen even if I did.

so I had to go with you.

why would I let my only source of happiness leave me?

that's jus absurd.

you said I was the cause of your euphoria and that if you jumped, you'd be in utopia.

it sounded amazing to me.

so I agreed.

we stood up, hands interlocked.

before I stepped onto the ledge, you grabbed my face and kissed me.

it was perfect.

you grabbed onto my hand once again as we stepped back onto the ledge.

you counted to 3, and we did it.

we jumped.

together.

I'd never felt so much bliss.

the wind was blowing my hair every direction possible.

I held onto you, waiting for the impact.

was i going to regret this?

did i want to spend more time together instead of ending it like this?

realizing it'd be instant, I closed my eyes and slowly let myself indulge in the cold wind on my skin.

I knew why, now.

I loved you, jungkook.