Thank You, I'm Sorry | Yoonjin

Chapter 16

Yoongi POV

Sighing softly as I groggily begin to wake up, I find myself not alone this morning, snuggling up into Jin hyung's side tiredly. I feel his hand begin moving from the small of my back, rubbing gently.

"How're you feeling, Yoongi?" I hear Jin hyung murmur softly, feeling him kiss the top of my head gently. I simply shrug in response, still working on waking up.

"Exhausted. Tired. Dead. Lost." I manage to whisper out, eyes still closed as I force a deep breath. I hear him sigh gently at this, staying silent for a moment.

"We'll get you going again soon enough, Yoongi-ssi. It's just gonna take some time." Jin says gently, fingers brushing through my hair for a moment. This time I'm the one sighing, shaking my head lightly.

"Hyung, I don't... don't..." I trail off, not really knowing what to say to him. I don't really have much of any energy at the moment, having really had any since the doctor confirmed what I feared most.

I don't really know how the hell to really keep going. I don't know how I have any energy to really be awake, though, I know I slept a decent amount yesterday as well. I just... My body feels so heavy. It's hard to move, takes so much energy. I don't really know what to do anymore... I'm beyond lost anymore, not really sure of how I'm supposed to go on now that Jimin's gone.

"Don't what, Yoongi?" Jin asks softly, brushing my fingers through my hair once more.

"Is it really even worth it? I... Jiminie's gone, hyung. I don't... Where the hell do we go after this? I just... I don't know... I don't know if I can take all of this." I mumble, knowing I don't really make a whole lot of sense at the moment, but not really knowing how to explain it. However, I'm soon pulled upright into a sitting position, making me lift my head up to look at him. He's got a serious expression on his face, a small frown on his lips.

"Yoongi, you are not giving up. Do you hear me? I'm not letting you give up. We've come so far over the years, and I know it's really hard now that we don't have him here with us, but I guarantee the last thing he wants is for you to give up. Okay? I know it's gonna take some time and it's not gonna be easy, but we're not letting you fall back into that depression. We're not letting you fall so low. Understand?" Jin says in a combined tone of gentle but stern, eyes flickering between my own. It's clear that he's not giving me options here, means every word he's just said, but honestly it kind of terrifies me.

I mean, I appreciate it. I appreciate his support, and it honestly makes me feel just the tiniest bit better knowing I really can fully rely on him to help me through all of this. I... I know it'll also most likely create a bit of a dependency upon him, but I've been somewhat dependent upon him and Jimin for a few years now. It... it makes me feel a bit safer.

At the same time though, I don't know how much more of all of this I can put up with. I... I've never felt this low before. I mean, Jiminie kissed me... and then went and ended everything... I-I don't know how I'm supposed to come back from that...

"Okay, Yoongi?" Jin repeats, tone much gentler this time as he bows his head a little to look down at me. I suck my lower lip in between my teeth, biting down gently as I reluctantly nod. He smiles just a tiny bit at this, clearly content with my response as he kisses my forehead before sitting back upright.

"Good. Now let's go get you something to eat." He says softly, rubbing my back for a moment again before climbing out of bed. I frown at this though, tearing up already as my lips form a pout, shaking my head.

"Yoongi..." Jin sighs with a small frown of his own.

"I'm not hungry, hyung. And I don't have any energy to be getting out of bed." I whimper quietly, simply sitting here and looking up at the older. He takes a deep breath before giving me a small warm smile, reaching his hands out to me. I whimper once more, knowing I don't wanna be alone more than I don't wanna eat or leave the bed.

Giving in, I take his hands and let him half drag me out of bed. He pulls me into his side once I'm up on my feet, wrapping an arm around my waist before leading us out of the room and downstairs. Though, I'm surprised to find the entire house seemingly empty.

"Where is everyone?" I mumble quietly, looking around the silent downstairs area as I'm brought over to one of the bar stools that are around the island we have. Jin sighs softly at the question as he begins to move around the kitchen to find things to make a meal with.

"They're at work."

I frown at this, trying to hold back more tears as I look over at him in confusion.

"What?"