Chasing Impossible Love (on hold)

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Finally the bell rings signaling school was over. I couldn't be more happy. The rest of the day was long and boring just like a normal day of school. Ryder hadn't tried to talk to me for the rest of the day. It was just the looks. The eye contact across the room.

I sat with Gina and her friends at lunch. I really liked it here. It was interesting, fun, new. I was happy and I tired not to let the whole Ryder thing get to my head.

"Jade!" I thought wrong. I stop, take a breath and turn around.

"Yes!" I ask, slightly curious about what he had to say now.

"What do I have to do?" He asks and I'm confused.

"What do you mean what to you have to do?" I laugh.

"What do I have to do for us to be friends?" He asks serious and I laugh a little bit.

"Nothing. We're not friends, we never will be." I give him an apologetic look.

"There has to be something. Come on. Please. I'm sorry. I will continue to say it until you forgive me." He begs.

"Then I guess you'll be saying sorry for a long time." I say sadly just wanting to leave.

"Jade please, stop with the whole act. There has to be something."

"What act?" I ask. "There is no act Ryder. You left me by myself, you stood me up at a place YOU invited me too for two hours."

"You waited that long?" He asks, feeling bad.

"Yes! And I'm never and have never been that girl to go out with a random guy she just meets. I'm not that type of girl to wait hours! But I did for some stupid reason. I still don't know why, maybe it was because I saw something, I felt something in my gut to trust you. I was wrong I guess." I laugh and shake my head.

"Now just please leave me alone. I don't want to be friends. You humiliated me. Just let me be." I say and I'm about to turn away when he speaks again.

"Not gonna stop until you forgive me, because if you know me, I won't give up." He winks and turns away.

"What an asshat!" I seem to mumble.

"I heard that!" I hear him yell which startled me. "Don't worry, I deserve it." He says and for some reason it makes me smile. Maybe I wasn't wrong. My gut had been wrong before, but that's where I learn from my mistakes. I walk away, towards the parking lot where I parked my car where I remember seeing him and his friends walking this morning. How I didn't want to see them at all but for some reason something changed in that time. Now all I thought was,

not forgiving him would be fun.
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Days of school had passed and I became really close with Gina and a girl named Kelsey in my bio class. I feel I am starting to finally fit in. I had seen Ryder yesterday and he gave me the same whole please forgive me talk but I still wasn't giving in, when he can tell me what his reason was for standing me up I'll forgive him.

I hadn't seen my mom in a few days which was normal but at the same time I hated it. She was always busy either working or in court with my dad arguing. I was done with it, and honestly it was sad to have to watch my world fall apart. I couldn't do anything, it sucked.

I call my mom and stand up from the lunch table I was at. Gina gives me a smile as I do a small wave but the phone just rings and rings and rings then ends and her voicemail pops up. I sigh getting more upset. Was everything okay? Was she just in her normal busy schedule?

"Heyyyy!" I hear Ryder's voice and I can't help but smile and try to push all thoughts about my mom away.

"I made you smile!" I hear him say as he steps in front of me.