Cheatin' Idol

Guilt

As the day went on the guilt really started to creep in. At the time it was the best ever like actually amazing but as I looked at my phone and the screensaver looking back at me was my wonderful family I couldn't take it anymore, I stood up and excuses myself during an audition much to the annoyance of the producer.
"Luke what are you doing" he asked
"I'm sorry I just needed to get some air"
"Well you shouldn't have went out last night should you, this is your job Luke, get it together. Go get some air and I will see back inside in ten minutes."
I grabbed a water and made my way outside. Ten minutes later I went back inside and sat down. I passed the kid that I walked out in in the way here and apologised, he made it to Hollywood which I was happy about.
"You ok" Katy whispered
"Yes" I answered curt
I heard her sigh but I can't get into this right now.
The auditions ended and I grabbed my phone
"Hey Luke hold up" I heard Lionel say
I stopped and turned
"Hey"
"You ok buddy" he asked putting his hand on my shoulder
"Yeah just having one of those days, you know how it gets, had an argument with Caroline before I left and kinda did something stupid"
"You wanna talk about it" he asked
"Yeah but give me half an hour ok. I will come meet you at the coffee shop across the road"
"Ok see you soon"
I walked off and just as I got in the elevator Katy ran in and the door closed
"Luke what the actual fuck" he snapped
"What"
"You know what you acting like a 16 year old little girl"
"How am I. Listen I am just feeling guilty about what we done, we shouldn't have crossed that line and now look I'm in the verge of being sacked before I fucked you" I shouted
"Keep it down jeez you have cheated before so why is this so different"
"I don't know Katy, I feel so guilty but then I can't get you out my fucking head" I said running my hands through my hair
She pressed stop on the elevator
"Luke listen I'm not worth ruining your marriage over ok but I don't mind sharing" she said moving closer
"We can't" I whispered "actually fuck it"
I said pushing her against the wall and kissing her deep. I broke away and leaned against her forehead
"I almost told Lionel, actually I need to talk to him but I will make up a random name"
"Don't tell him please"
"I won't, I fly home tomorrow but can you spend the night"
"Yes Orlando in Canada so I'm all alone. Go see old man Ritchie and I will meet you in your room" she smiled, starting in the elevator back up
"Your insatiable. I'm going to call Caroline."
"Tell her I said hi" she laughed