to oneself

saw him today.

You know, I saw him again. It has been so many years that I haven't talked to him, so many years that I haven't seen him. I saw him today and I felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. That's weird because years ago he was one of my closest friend. I saw him today and I remembered all the things we said, all the things we kept silent. I thought about the time we were friends and about the way I ended this thing we had, if we ever had something. Maybe I felt something in the depths of my heart but I can't tell. Maybe I just wanted to say hello, do you remember me? But I don't think it would've changed something between us. Because we've become strangers, because we don't have anything in common like we used to have. Maybe I simply wanted to see a reaction in his eyes that would've told me that he remembered who I was instead of that look we give to strangers.