It's Simply Fate / Jake Kiszka

abandonment

I don't think I could ever forget the first time I kissed him, the touch sent shock waves through my body.

I'm surprised with myself, I'd never kissed anyone before him. Sure, there have been plenty of chances; but I didn't want to kiss someone just for the fun of it. Making sure that my first kiss would be special and with the right one, or at least someone I trust, was important to me.

I don't know what it is about Jake, but I feel connected to him. Yes that sounds cliche but it's true, I feel like I've know him forever.

After the kiss happened, I updated Val and Ava about my situation at home. They were devastated for me, Ava insisted that I stay with her for a couple days. I agreed, I think it's best that I'm not staying with jake right away. We need time apart to think about things and I don't want to suffocate him.

Karen is so lovely, she told me that I have to come back soon. Josh and Sam also said goodbye, occasionally teasing us. Then there was Jake, I hugged him tight, not wanting to let go and he did the same back. Ava and Valerie picked me up together. I was glad, I missed having them around.

When we got home I told them all about Jake and everything that happened between us. They were both ecstatic, they can't believe I actually kissed him.

I've been at Ava's house for a couple days now. We don't see each other much because I'm usually at work. I think working is the best thing for me right now, it's distracting me from all the other stuff I have to worry about.

11:33 pm

I'm in Ava's bed trying to fall asleep but I just can't. I'm too busy worrying about going back home tomorrow. I don't want the whole thing weighing on me, I need to sort it out as soon as possible. They still haven't checked up on me, no phone call no text, nothing.

That shows me how much they really care shout me. I don't really want to stay there, but I guess I'll have to see how it goes. There's no point stressing now.

7:07 am

I've been awake for an hour now, I had a shower and changed my clothes. I'm just packing up everything I've left around to take with me. I can see the fear in Ava's eyes, she doesn't want me to go back. She's never been a fan of my dad. But I have to go back, I just have to.

I get my bag and head for the front door. I thank Ava's mom for letting me stay and hug her goodbye. Ava's parents aren't together anymore, she lives with her mom and stepfather. I like him, he's a good fit for them.

Ava hugs me goodbye and almost squashes me to death. I get in the cab and nervously wait for my arrival back home.

I'm at the front door and my hands are shaking, I can't even get the key in properly. But before I can open it myself, Luke opens it for me. He looks me up and down, "You're back," he smirks, "gotta hand it to you, that was longer than I expected, good job sis."

I can't stand his face, I immediately regret coming back. But I'm here now and I have to face them. I push him out of the way, not giving him the satisfaction of a snarky answer. "Where is everyone?" I ask.

"Dad isn't home yet and I think mom is in her room," he answers.

I make my way to my mothers room, gently knocking on the door. She doesn't answer so I open it myself. The room looks half empty, there's clothes all over the floor and even more piled in a suitcase. My mom comes around the corner, just realising that I'm here.

She stops everything and just stares at me. There's no emotion on her once loving and caring face. The mother I know and love isn't there anymore. She doesn't say anything to me and starts picking clothes off of the floor.

I feel the tears welling up in my eyes, "Aren't you going to say anything? I've been gone and you have nothing to say?" I question her.

She continues packing clothes and doesn't say a word. I start crying, "You don't even care about me anymore."

She turns around, not looking me in the eyes, "I can't stay here. I just can't" she says, frantically.

She zips the suitcase up, pulls it down and starts walking out the room. I follow her, "Where are you going?!" I shout.

"I have to leave before he comes back," she says, walking out the door.

I watch her rush towards the cab she'd previously ordered, "Don't leave me! Please!" I yell through my hysterical crying.

She doesn't look back, she just gets in the car and it drives off into the distance.

Luke comes out and starts asking me all these questions. I can't hear him properly, his words sound muffled. I run back inside and into my room, locking the door behind me. I start packing everything, shoving anything I see in my bag.

Luke's banging on the door and eventually he manages to break it open. "Where did mom go?!" he asks.

"She left Luke, she left this shitty house. She left her shitty husband" I answer truthfully.

He panics, "And where are you going?"

I look him in the eyes, "I'm leaving too. I can't stay here, at least not mom gone. She was the only thing keeping me from leaving and now she's gone."

He's like a completely different person, I've never seen him like this. He grabs me by the arm, "Don't leave me Zylah, please" he says, fear in his voice.

"You never cared before so why now. I'm leaving and that's final" I snap at him.

He lets go of me and I walk as fast as I can, struggling with all the bags I have to carry. I call Jake and he picks up right away, "Hey Zylah-" I interrupt him, "Jake"

I tell him about everything that just happened,
"Stop walking, I'm coming to get you right now" he says.

So I stop and wait for Jake. I keep worrying my dad will pass by and see me, but that doesn't happen. It's only a few minutes before he arrives and I'm relieved. He gets out of the car and hugs me, he makes me feel better straight away.

"I don't know what I'm going to do, I've lost everyone " I whisper.

He turns to me, worry in his eyes, "You just got me and I'm not leaving you" he puts his hand on mine.