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9. CARRY ON

Dear Who Ever Is Reading This,

How did we get here ? Once strung out on love .. now cant stand the sight of each other. Im honestly drunk and confused. Im tired of being patient and your little secret. You where on top but always pushed me and our baby down.

I was trapped in this concept. Im not hiding you from the world .. im hiding the world from you. I may have been wrong but I never falsely accused you of anything. I hope you fucken rest in peace.

*If you didnt know, in "Carry On" he says "Bitch, Im hoping you rest in peace" so ion wanna hear shit about that last line .. also if its unclear while this story takes place he is very much alive*

I tried to be patient with you. Now the fact that you really left me alone is fucken crazy and I cant seem to shake this feeling. I gave you the cold shoulder and you deserved it. Not claiming your child, acting like you didnt beg me to stay with you & making me .. us a secret .. me, you and Namora. I am heart broken but still the story being told is misspoken.

You cut my chest open. Placed your finger in the cut. And if I could .. id probably dance on your grave. Get inside your head and fuck the rest of your life up. But I see your face and I fucken hate that I love you still.

But have to carry on. Life will carry on regardless. Void in my life but I have no choice but to carry on.

Love,

lee