As I laid there on the sad with my long red dress. I realized that it was the first time in a while since I experienced silence.
Well.. it's not completely silent, because I can hear the waves and wind blowing away the sand.
The way the moonlight is shining down the ocean, makes it more beautiful.
Just few people are walking pass me so that left me most of the time alone on at the beach. I can't stress how badly I needed this. Alone with my thoughts and nobody telling me what to do or telling me who I am.
I can just be myself and enjoy it.
My husband apparently thinks that it's a sing that I want to avoid him. It appears to me that he has to make a big seen everytime I want to do something without him. He even accused me of cheating on him. Like I would ever do that to him. Loyalty is one of my biggest priorities in a relationship.
The way he acts makes me wonder if he is the one cheating on me.I don't want to think that, but it's no big deal for him to go out late and not showing me affection like he used to. It could be the case, but I don't want it to be true. I wouldn't be able to handle it.
I just wish he could tell me why he is behaving the way he is. We could make it work. Sure, it could be better and it's definitely not all rainbows, but I married him for a reason and its because I love him enough to fight what we have. I feel alive and save with him when we are together and made up.
The whole bettering process would be a lot faster if my and his family would stop giving him reasons to continue to behave the way he does. It feels so frustrating to be the only one to think he isn't treating me right. No wonder woman have a hard time to upend up to people what it comes to their relationship.
,,Maybe you are the one overreacting?"
,,You're lucky that you have a husband who cares about you and wants to spent time with you. Other women would kill to be in the position you are right now. You should appreciate him more."
I have to listen to this kind of "advice" from my lovely big sister and mother, which makes me feel silly to talk to my family about it.
I know for sure that my family is waiting for me at home with my husband.
I have never been more ready to confront them. It's about me and nobady should try and control my happiness. And if my husband doesn't like what I am suggesting, then I might as well get a new one...
A/N: What would you do in this situation?🤔
