My Possessive Alpha

Saying Goodbyes

Since I got back I haven't left my room Tristan's now awake and trying to cheer me up but nothing he can do can make me feel better I won't talk to anyone at all he keeps asking why I keep crying I wish I could tell him I see that it hurts him that I'm hurting but what can I do I'm doing this to protect him.

"Princess Please talk to me maybe I can help"

"you can't help no one can help me" I cry out

Tears are streaming down my face uncontrollably he comes up to me and wrapp his arms around me instantly I relax I breathe in his intoxicating scent then I push him away

"Get away from me don't touch me"

I can see the hurt in his eyes it breaks me it really does i can feel his emotions it just makes the tears streaming down my face come even faster.

"Princess Please let me help you"

"don't you get it no one can help me so go away and leave me alone I don't want you here" I wail

I start throwing pillows at him anything I can get my hands on bags lamps anything really.

"get out I don't love you I never have get out I was just using you "

I got out the bed and started hitting
Him on his chest

"Didn't you hear me out"

He walked out slamming the door my heart smashed into a million pieces I went back into bed and cried my self to sleep not before thinking I hope I did the right thing tomorrow i say goodbye to Lilly and leave my mate hopefully what I said to him will make him leave me alone oh god I hope so.

I wake up to an empty bed well of course it will be empty after what I said to him last night anyway it's for the best but I'm going to miss having him next to miss him kissing me telling me he loves me even thinking about him not being around anymore brings me to tears anyway its best not to think about it yet I've still got time.

I decide to mindlink Lilly

"hey Lils can you come to my room I need you right about now and can you bring some food"

"sure I'll be right there I heard about yesterday I told Tristan you didn't mean it"

"okay see you soon"

I'm really going to miss Lilly she's always been there for me I'm going to tell her what's going on she's the only one I trust.

In about 5 minutes Lilly was here with something to eat which is good because I'm starving.

"omg Lea you look a mess come here"
She came in and gave me a big fat hug and honestly I needed that

"I know it's just a lot of things have been happening lately"

"are you going to tell me whats going on"

"yeah you know who is back and I don't have a choice"

"shut the front door you don't have a choice about what"

"you may want to sit down for this"

So I told Lilly everything that happened and what I had to do she couldn't believe it she was like I have to tell Tristan but I can't I really can't. We sat here talking for hours about anything just like the old days before this big whole mess.

"Lea if you're not going to tell Tristan then least give him a proper goodbye because you're regret it"

" I know you're right at the time doing it how I did I thought it will make things easier on me if he thinks I never loved him he will be able to forget me"

"Trust me no one can forget you your one of a kind"

"you know it hunny if I want to say goodbye to Tristan I better do it now"

"I guess this is goodbye give mamma some sugar"

"yeah I guess it is please don't cry promise me"

"I promise and you promise me you will try to find away back"

"I promise"

We gave each other a big hug we promised not to cry but we both had tears streaming down our faces.

"Besties" Lilly ask
"forever and always" I reply

I leave Lilly and go to find Tristan because I can't leave it like this

I find him in his office looking all stressed out he looked miserable but when he saw me come in he perked up.

I went to him put my arms around his neck and looked straight into his eyes and say

"Tristan I love you so much the things I said yesterday non of them were true you don't know how much I love you I just wanted to make things easier for me. I have to go away and I might never come back but I don't want you to ever think I don't love you this is breaking me to do this but I don't have a choice I love you so much baby boy but I have to say goodbye please forgive me "

" Princess what are you on about saying goodbye you aren't going anywhere you're mine I love you whatever is happening we can sort it and of course I forgive you you don't have to go anywhere we have a family together "

With tears streaming down my face I put my finger to his lips " shush " I have to go and there's nothing you can do were going to miss you so much"

I grab his hand and place it on my stomach "she's going to miss her Daddy"

He wrapps his arms around me so tight he keeps telling me "you're not going anywhere I won't let you"

"you have to let me you have no choice and please don't come looking for me you won't find me don't follow me one day you will forget that I ever existed"

"I could never forget you not ever I love you your mine how could I"

He presses his lips against mine our tounges were swirling in perfect sync this kiss was so passionate we were kissing like this is the last because this could be our last kiss he pushed up against the door I wrapped my legs around his torso and we carried on until we couldn't anymore.

"it's time for me to go now just know that I love you so much and maybe in a other life things could of been different I will never forget you I will think of you until my last dying breathe"

He pulls me into his arms one last time and says "I will never forget you you will always be my Princess and I don't care what you say I will look for you and I will find you I always get what's mine"

It hurts me seeing him like this this is the second time I've seen him cry first when I passed out and now this hopefully this is the last.

"Goodbye Baby boy I love you"

It took everything in me not to run back into his arms but I didn't I walked away and I didn't look back because I couldn't it's too painful.

This is why I didn't want to have a mate I didn't want to fall in love and then have to leave because everything in my life doesn't last very long I knew he would find me he always does.

Can you now see why I didn't want a mate?