Love In A Hopeless Place < 3

Chapter 2: Come 2 Me

Alanna

I Have not been Able to keep my mind off X's wristband, the one he left behind. Holding it between my fingers I look out the window patiently wating for him to text me. I'll be honest I have not paid any attention to the Number he left behind in my phone, i thought i deleted it but did not. Running fingers through my head I try not overanalyze but simply cannot help myself. Me and X were off and on for 4 years with the end result being: Him leaving me without saying  a word. essentially disappearing on me is what I call it only to have him return to me time and time again because as he likes to tell it...I'm his safe place. I'm the one he comes to to clear his mind and to get things off his chest that bothers him, to bare his soul to me basically. He's lost and I see him as someone I can help save. Every good girl's fantasy is transforming a bad boy into a better person. I know its cliche, the good girl hoping and praying that she can indeed turn a bad boy around to make him change but it never comes to fruition unless the bad boy wants to change for himself. Its foolish of me deep down to hold on to this fantasy of helping him change from street life to a normal life. X, has all the potential in the world be anything that he wants to be but he doesn't want. SMH. Its his life he can do whatever he wants to do with it, I just hope he would SOMEDAY want something more out it then running the streets to make "Fast Money" All he sees are dollar signs.

Flipping through the channels I come across "Love Don't Cost A Thing" and decide to watch it, I fucking love this movie and the title holds true. Love don't cost a thing I wish X would get that through his thick skull that he doesn't have to buy me nice things to gain my love when he knows he will aways have it. Don't get it twisted, we're not together right now as he has just returned to town and I'm in a relationship he knows nothing about. I know that X will be contacting me soon, I always get this strange feeling whenever i feel like he's nearby or he's coming over been had this feeling since our high school days. Just as I was about to settle in for the night, I recieve a text...

"Come 2 me"

Chills went down my spine, my stomach soon turned to butterflies. It was from X. he wanted to see me leading my intuition to be right. "Where R U?" I text back..."At my dad's house" I scoffed as if he knew that i know where his daddy lives hell i don't even know where his mama lives just know that she lives close by. Sighing, I put back on my boots and shot him a text asking for the address, grabbed my beenie, slipped out the bedroom. car keys in hand ready to go see him.

X

My Fucking room was a mess! shit let me tidy up before my baby gets here, don't want her thinking I'm some kind of slob I can't have that. So many thoughts roam through my mind at times as to why I do the shit that I do and drag her into my crazy world its not fair to string her alone like this. I love her there's no doubt about that. She was the first girl i ever loved and the only one i truly gave a fuck about. She's everything and more. Beautiful, smart, caring and forgiving...forgiving...maybe that's why i do the things that i do because i know that no matter how many times she gets mad she'll find it in herself to forgive me. That fact alone makes me only love her more. Glancing around my room I wanted to make sure it was to my liking for her first time of being in here.

"I'm Outside"

After recieving her text I walked outside to meet her.