Look at me... | | Namjoon ff

Chapter 1

[ YOUR P.O.V. ]

I hesitantly step on the scale, as if I were walking up on stage. Left feet, then right....W-what?!

I couldn't believe what the numbers say. Numbers don't lie, right?! I blink a few times before bending down to check the numbers. I've gained six pounds since the last time I got on the scale....I should check more often...

My heart drops as far as it would, possibly to my stomach. I felt like a failure after the numbers had sank in. How was this possible...? Even though I'm not obese, I'm still overweight and not skinny enough to be pretty. I was lucky enough to be taller than most girls so I don't look like a walking blueberry. I looked at the mirror, I can't even stand to look at what I've become anymore.

I step off of the scale, left leg, then right....and I let a shaky, doubtful breath in.

Another day of torture.

I slip on a hoodie and random pair of jeans with a pair converse. I don't care how I look anymore. It's not like I'm trying to impress anyone at school. I scroll through social media and talk to my online friends, but there's one person in particular who I enjoy talking to. He texts me everyday and makes me feel like the complete opposite of a failure. We both don't know how the other looks so he doesn't know that I'm overweight. I like it this way. If he ever found out how I look, I'm sure he would immediately leave me forever.

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[ 7:20 am ]

KN: shit school 🤢

Me: yeah...

KN: what's wrong peanut?

[ KN calls you a peanut but he never said why. ]

Me: its nothin rlly...I'm just tired because I fell asleep at 2 am lol

KN: you have to sleep more early peAnuT, or else!

Me: or else what? >:v

KN: I'll punish you with...CAT VIDEOS!

[ KN sends you multiple cat videos. ]

KN: >:)

Me: ...srsly KN...I have to catch the bus, bye

KN: :( fine I have to go too-

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[ THIRD PERSON ]

You smile at KN's message, shoving your phone in your backpack and w outside to wait for the bus. Hopefully I can survive another day in school. You look around and observe the other students that go to your bus stop. Most of them were guys who would stay in their own groups. The most popular one or the leader, you should say, was the tallest out of all them. He had dark brown parted hair, two noticeable dimples and small eyes. You couldn't help but notice his dimples. I want to touch them.. You bite your lips in temptation. He noticed you staring so you looked away immediately.

Oh god, he must think I'm a creep.. You shake your head and line up to get on the bus that was nearing the bus station. You feel a sudden touch on your shoulder, and It was him. His eyes connected with yours, he was trying to tell you something. You realized he wanted me to cut him through the emotion his eyes were conveying. you didn't know what to do so you nod. He smiles, showing his two dimples. He clumsily steps aside so you could move forward. Someone's actually being nice to me.. I've never felt like this before...

You get on the bus and sit in the front. Oh boy..