Forsake

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skipping to aria's bday bc i can. serious shizzle's happening again :$

13th of December, 11:30 AM.

NYC, NY. Aria's house.

☠ Aria's PoV ☠

Today's my birthday! Oliver's here helping me decorate the house. "Balloons..?" He asks as he holds up a couple of balloons. "Shut up, I like balloons." I reply.

"Oli, can you help me put this thing up?"

"It's called a banner, Aria, a banner."

"Whatever, can you?" I ask as I raise the banner and he nods. He lifts me up and I try to stick the banner to the wall. "Give me the duck tape." I order. "Where is it?" He asks as he turns around, forgetting that I'm standing on his shoulders.

I lose my balance and fall. I land on top of him. "You little shit." I mumble and he laughs. We just look at each other's eyes. He slowly leans in but I quickly pull away.

"Let's try that again, and this time, don't turn around." I say and he nods, then he lifts me up again.

After finishing the decorations we head to the kitchen to prepare food. "Can we make spaghetti?" I ask him and he gives me a "what the hell" look. "Fine then, lasagne?" I ask again. "Nope, we're baking a cake." He says as he gets out the ingredients.

"Do you even know how to bake a cake?" I ask him. "I googled it so.. Yeah?" He answers and I nudge him.

We stay silent for a few minutes. "Do you think Andy's coming?" He asks breaking the silence. "No.. I don't think so." I say as I frown and he starts smiling. "Why are you, why are you smiling?" I ask him. "He is coming, Aria, he is." He replies.

*

Nat and Bri arrive, along with some stranger. "Hey Aria! Happy birthday!" Nat says whilst hugging me. "Awh thanks, Nat!" I turn to face Bri. "Aria, this is Masyn. Masyn, this is Aria." She says. Masyn and I hug, like we've known each other for years.

"Aria, I need you!" Oli yells from the kitchen. Bri and Nat look at me and I shrug. "I meant, I need your help," He corrects himself. "Okay um, go get some stuff to drink and eat and I'll be in the kitchen."

*

"What time is it?" I ask Oli. "Uh, 2:05 pm. When does the party start?"

"Um, I think at 5:00 pm."

And again, awkward silence. "Did Andy tell you he's coming?" I ask him and he just winks at me then walks out of the kitchen.

I text Andy but he doesn't answer..

*

5:00 PM.

The guests have arrived and since everyone's busy partying, I hang out with Vic for a while.

"You look great by the way." He says. "Thanks, I always do, to be honest." I reply. "So uh, where's your lover boy?" He looks around. "Andy?" I ask.

"Yeah."

"Touring. I've been trying to reach him but he's not answering. I don't think he's coming."

We chat and party for the next hour until I get bored and go upstairs. (Skipping 2 hours man, now its 7:30 i think idk)

"Aria!? Time for the cake!" Everyone yells and I sprint downstairs. We all gather around the cake and they sing me the birthday song.

"Make a wish." Oli says smiling. I don't know what to wish for, I have all I ever wanted. "I'll save it for later," I reply. I grab the knife and cut the cake.

When we were baking the cake, Oli didn't notice me adding hot chili powder to a small part of the cake. Who's going to be the lucky one?

Everyone else continues partying while I sit in the kitchen staring at my phone. Masyn comes sprinting to the kitchen. "Something wrong?" I say trying not to laugh. "Water! I need water! Cold water please!" She starts yelling, oh the poor girl.

I quickly get her water and explain for her what happened to the cake.

Moments later my phone buzzes, it must be Andy. I go upstairs away from the noise and I check my phone.

1-800-some-random-number: Aria?

aria: yes? who's this?

1-800-some-random-number: This is Juliet.

aria: the blonde chick? the ex?

juliet: Yes.

aria: what do you want?

juliet: Well, first, happy birthday. Second, Andy's on his way to your house. And third, you should reconsider dating Andy.

aria: ty, k, and why?

Juliet: *send a photo of andy and juliet kissing huehue*

No, no, no. This can't be happening. No. I realize that I'm already crying. It hurts, it hurts so much.

My phone rings and I check the caller ID. Andy. I pick up the phone and say, "It's sad really; that the only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I don't want to hurt anyone. But the reason I want to kill myself is because everyone is hurting me." and I hang up before he could say anything to stop me.

I lock my door and screenshot my conversation with Juliet. I connect my phone to my laptop and print the conversation. I hang the paper on the wall next to the bathroom door, then I write a note and hang it on the bathroom door.

I walk in and lock the door. I look for one of my sharpest blades I hid behind the sink. I also grab a massive amount of sleeping pills. I sit in the bathtub and turn the faucet on.

I start cutting, just like last time, but this time I'm cutting deeper. I cut until I'm covered in blood.

I'm drowning in tears, blinded by my sadness, fooled by my depression. I grab my phone and look at the picture Juliet sent me. I started crying more painfully now. The tears slid down my cheeks, the anger and hatred rose in me, it blinded me more than my sadness now. I take one last look at a picture of Andy, and then I glance at the pills, and then I knew there is no happiness in life; there's no light at the end of the tunnel, just another pit of darkness, all the smiles were lies. I took a handful of pills, and at a blink of an eye, I swallowed them.

-

So intense man.

I want to thank my brother, @Romero1337, for giving me ideas for the suicide scene. Also please read his story "Smile of Faith".

End of story, farewell.

AHHAHHA jay kay jay kay.

Twitter: @SempiternalYo

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