My Life

Who do i want to be?

I asked myself who i wanted to be or who i had became over these past few years.. i tried finding myself  with many ways possible and all i concluded was i just didn't want to be that person anymore.. That person who got sad whenever she feels lonely and feel miserable cause she has no date for valentines or prom. I just wanted to be me, where i can depend on myself and not others. I've fought many battles with in the years and i passed it eventually. But now, i feel like i've hit rock bottom. I can't catch up on things and i'm failing school and school is my first worry then myself next on how i should react or what i should do to make myself a better person. I didn't know what i wanted to be when i grow up, still have no clue and i have 3 more years until i graduate, i know it's a long time but it's good to know what you want so you can study it and hopefully be good at it haha funny what a joke i'm bad at everything. Not everything you do will be perfect but atleast i know that what i do i give it 110%. All my life i never exected something good to always happen to me but sometimes it's nice to know that you still have someone there to be there for you. I used to have someone who is always there for me but he long gone he never cared about me just himself. I could tell him everything ebfore but now i feel uncomfortable because i know he is not listening and he doesn't care at all. Everyone is stabbing each other's back. It's like being in the hunger games. Fight each other just to get it your way. Everyone is selfish there is not a single person in the world who isn't, and sometimes it's not a bad thing. It's good to put yourself first because putting others first all the time just hurts you. They never appreciate it until you stop. Whenever you stop they call you selfish and all but ignore thhose type of comments. We were all born with flaws but our differences is how we embrace those flaws to represent ourselves.