T O Y A

Twenty Three

Carter in the media

Toya
Carted and I had just switched places. I was now with Tyler and Pharaoh while he was with Rayven and Karmen. We requested that they roomed together to make our visits easier. And although they had nurses, we made it our business to cater to their every need.

"My foot kinda hurts Toy." I rolled my eyes putting a blanket over his body.

"I am not giving you a foot massage Pharaoh."

"Come on man. 5 minutes."

"No boy." I chuckled turning the tv on for them.

I walked over to Tyler, adjusting his pillow.

"Thanks, little one." He said closing his eyes.

Ding

Carter🥰: Mo is out of surgery.

Me: How did it go.

Carter🥰: It went well but he is in a coma

I shook my head, locking my phone.

"What's wrong?" Pharaoh asked. Tyler instantly woke up, sitting up in the bed.

"Mo is out of surgery." I tried to muster up the best smile I could. But they weren't falling for it.

"He ain't awake is he?" Tyler asked. I shook my head no.

They both just stared at me as silence fell over the room. And I couldn't contain my emotions anymore.

"I'm so sorry guys. I should have never brought you all around this shit. If it wasn't for my crazy ass cousin everyone would be alright."

"Aye stop that shit Toy. This ain't your fault." Pharaoh said. Tyler got up to hug me. I hugged him back crying into his shoulder.

"Look we a family. No matter what. Yea some unfortunate shit happens. But I know none of is regret trying to save you Toy."

"Real shit." Pharaoh added. My crying came to a stop and I nodded my head.

"Now go check on our boy." Tyler smiled at me letting me go.

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Omniscient
Carter and Toya stood silently watching Mo look so at peace, but he was anything but.

The surgery went well, however Mo was in a coma, and doctors weren't sure when or if he was ever gonna wake up. Or what might reveal if he does.

Carter and Toya both stood over Mo with the same thoughts running through their heads.

It's all my fault

They both blamed themselves for what happened to their friends. If a family loses their son because of their problems, they would never forgive themselves.

They would never be able to live with themselves. They would never be able to live with each other. How could they possibly love someone else when they hate themselves?

They continued to sit in silence as Toya gripped his hand, giving it a tight squeeze here and there. She bowed her head, closing her eyes, indicating she was giving him a silent prayer.

All Carter could do was stare.

Pharaoh, Tyler, and Rayven were rolled into the room by nurses, as Karmen walked slowly behind them.

"What's the word?" Pharaoh asked never taking his eyes off Mo.

"Still the same. They don't know what's gonna happen."